2007-11-29

This lovely, brisk day was spent entirely in preparations for Mick’s and my trip to Nebraska. After Morning offering Mick and Gary went off to do all of the rest of the week’s mowing, quite a marathon, which they did admirably, coming home rejoicing!

Meanwhile I got together a list of emergency numbers for Melissa and Gary – our hotel number, Mom McCarty’s number and numbers for the plumber, electrician and the local utility’s emergency line.

There were quite a few clothes ready to give to Goodwill, and I got them all counted and valued and in a box for Gary to take to them tomorrow.

Three letters of the snail-mail type will go to Nebraska with me, and I found envelopes and stamps and such for them.

Mick was home in time to help me pack my clothes and other traps for the trip. I think all is done now except the packing up of my computer and little printer, which will have to wait until just before we leave, so that I can write in my journals.

Mick offered the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2007-11-28

With the journey to Nebraska looming, after Morning Offering I sat down and made lists – a list of things to do before Mick and I leave and a packing list. I spent the rest of the morning editing the first Aaron/Q’uo Dialogue session of the eighth weekend gathering here.

At lunchtime I went up to Middletown and gave blood for my monthly labs. That was the first item on my to-do list. The second was to bring my list of prescriptions up to date and make sure that the records matched the actual pill bottles. It is always good to have that in order when one is traveling in case of an emergency.

I took a break and collected a couple of recipes for the database, one an interesting mixture of tomatoes, black-eyed peas and red bell peppers and the other a wonderfully rich eggnog which I think I will make for Christmas Day, since we will be having it at home this year. It will show off our farm-fresh eggs to great advantage!

Then it was back to the list. I brought my Christmas gift list up to date and left it with a note for Gary so that he is expecting a couple of late-arriving packages and will wrap them for me. My goal there is to have all the gifts ready to sort and mail if needed when we come back from seeing Mom McCarty.

After our bath, Mick and I sat down and compared our to-do lists. It really helps to coordinate our efforts. After talking with him, I re-prioritized my eight remaining chores and gave a silent prayer that tomorrow would give me enough time to do these things, going at my present, inchworm-like speed! Here’s hoping!

Mick offered the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2007-11-27

Another cold day, close to freezing all day, greeted Mick after Morning Offering as he set out to crunch leaves. He came home unexpectedly around lunch time just to warm up! It was great to see him a little extra time.

I worked with the Christmas letter this morning, giving it a final polish, adding info on what is coming up for us in the New Year, telling about the Channeling Intensive and the speech at the International UFO Congress in February. I also added Gary’s name to Mick’s and mine, after consulting with him to be sure he still wished that. He has spent most of his nights for the last few months at Valerie’s and I did not know if he still considered that he lived here. However, he does.

I was so supremely fortunate! The letter fit on the Christmas paper on the very first try. And then here came Mick, and I got the signatures on the letter too, so it was ready to copy 300 times – the size of our card list always surprises me!

Meanwhile Gary printed out the mailing labels for the L/L and House list and also for the MacDuffie list. So we’re all set to stuff the cards in Nebraska, a chore Mick likes to take with him on Mom’s birthday trip so as to have something to do there.

I had time only to put away a new supply of razor blades that had come in for Jim, taking all the cardboard packaging off and storing them in his little box in the bathroom, before it was time to go to the eye doctor’s. They kept me there forever, it seemed! Dr. Bassett says that she thinks my eyelids are enough blocking my vision that Medicare will pay for “lifting” them and she will make me an appointment to see about that. She said that although I do have mild cataracts, they have not progressed appreciably since last year. She also said my right eye had gotten considerably weaker this year. However the left eye is unchanged. So I will only have to get one lens replaced and can keep my glasses.

She recommended that I get a second pair of glasses just for working on the computer. I told her that I had been taking my glasses off at the computer and only putting them on if I wanted to read something in a book or on a piece of paper and she said that’s the sign that I need special glasses just for working at the computer. So I ordered those too. They should be waiting for me when I get home from this upcoming Nebraska trip.

Romi came over for a visit tonight and we enjoyed an episode of “House” together. Romi offered the prayer at the Gaia Meditation. He also, praise the Lord, installed on Jenny Traveller the software which translates Word 2007 into Word 2003. I have recently had to send documents to Ian when people wrote me on Word 2007 computers.

2007-11-26

This was truly an alternate day for me. After Morning Offering, which we shared with Gerri G, Mick sailed off to dodge between the rain drops. The rain did get heavy and overcame him, but not before he had finished his two major jobs of the day. Three small ones will be added to tomorrow’s schedule, but fortunately it is predicted to be fair weather tomorrow.

Melissa had come to Camelot to help me sort through clothes, for I have gained weight with this forced inactivity and needed to comb through my winter things to find the garments I can wear and to give away the rest. I am not one to store clothes against the day when I lose weight! I like to keep those clothes circulating at the Goodwill for someone who can wear them right now.

We got a good beginning made, going through all my pants and skirts. We’ll do the rest next time Mel comes to town. She also helped me go through all my socks to weed out the ones needed to be retired for lack of elastic. I am light on my feet and do not wear socks out by making holes in them. However I wear out the elastic after a couple of decades, which is how long I have gone without buying new socks. Having broken down and bought new socks now, I need to clean out the old ones. That was really fun! I did not realize how very tired I was of the old socks, and being forever pulling them back up, until I consigned them to the wastebasket!

Six of my pairs of pants and a skirt needed altering, for I had found new pants that fit well except at the waist, which was too big. So we went to Sergei’s to have the waists nipped in. thank heaven for tailors! With this and other errands completed, we came back to Camelot.

I attempted to write, but the words would not come. I was just too far below par today, which made me doubly glad I had at least gotten SOMETHING done! So I dropped back and punted by working on my e-mail Inbox. I let Gary know we welcomed his father’s upcoming visit with open arms and sent him the one remaining missing first name for our Christmas card labels – a new JLS customer with whom Mick has not gotten past respectful address to “Mr. and Mrs.”. Fr. Joe had written to ask if tomorrow would be good for him to bring the Eucharist to me and hear my Advent Confession. I gratefully accepted. I wrote my UPI editor letting her know of my continued illness. And I responded to Steve E’s questions on psychic greeting by sending him to our archives and the very kewl Google site search feature Ian has installed there, and by assuring him that emotions as well as physical distortions can be energized by psychic greeting.

Mick and I had a blessed, sweet date after our bath and I was very interested to note that although I was too weary to come to orgasm of the 3-D type today, afterwards I found myself experiencing those same full-body orgasms which I have experienced the last two times we have made love together. What an infinite blessing!

Mick offered the prayer at the closing of the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2007-11-25

As blustery winds and gray skies greeted us, Mick and I had a lovely, quiet Sunday morning. Geri and Leonard G, who are visiting in order to get the lay of the land here in Louisville, joined us to read the paper, converse and pat the kitties until 11:00, when The G’s took Romi and me for a delightful lunch at the Captain’s Quarters restaurant.

This was the prelude to an afternoon of touring this northeast part of the county where Mick, Gary and I live. They are looking for a condominium, as they are at the age where they would prefer not to do yard work any more.

Romi drove and I was tour guide. We found at least half a dozen communities with patio homes around here and suspect there are more tucked away in the burgeoning country roads of this part of the county. Construction is everywhere! And these patio home communities are very popular indeed. I imagine that by the time the G’s sell their present abode and hunt for real here in Louisville next spring, they will have a very nice selection of homes from which to choose.

It was good to help them out and Romi and I enjoyed the drive as the last of the leaves were falling.

When we returned, after some conversation the G’s took a nap, Romi departed and Jim and I watched “The Life and Hard Times of Guy Terrifico”. This was a hilarious send-up on the order of “This Is Spinal Tap”, only the spoofing was of country music. I suspect the hand of Kris Kristofferson behind this screenplay although Michael Mabbott gets the credit.

Especially good was Matt Murphy (and I am wondering if he is the son of Matt “The Guitar” Murphy who graced “The Blues Brothers”) as Guy, the bad boy and anti-hero of the film. Mick and I roared frequently throughout the festivities! It was a funny, funny film. Gotta love a film in which so many good stories are stolen from real life and tucked into the in-jokes of a bunch of country singers like Kristofferson, Merle Haggard, Ronny Hawkins, Levon Helm and Phil Kaufman.

I offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2007-11-23 and 24

Because I overslept yesterday and then had a very full day, I never did get my Journal entry written, so this entry covers both yesterday and today.

After Morning Offering yesterday, Mick and Gary set out to work in seven yards and bagged and crunched leaves most of the day. Meanwhile I spent the morning creating the Christmas letter to put in with our cards this year, and sent that down to Mick’s computer so he can vet it and hopefully add the things I forgot to mention. I also wrote the letter to my MacDuffie classmates asking them for their updates and got that duplicated. I will write an update letter to my class members around the first of the year.

The rest of the morning and the first part of the afternoon was spent editing the transcript of David G’s special channeling session.

In the afternoon, I did some e-mail, writing Steve E. about B4 web site matters. We’re working to have the best possible image for the site’s home page “splash page”.

I wrote to ask Fr. Joe at St. Luke’s if he would come and give me Holy Eucharist here at Camelot, and hear my Advent confession. He replied very kindly that he would do so sometime next week.

I wrote Nicole B-I of the UFO Congress to ask about my speech's time slot. The old time slot had disappeared, and no new one had showed up. Nicole replied almost immediately, saying that they were redoing the whole schedule and as soon as she has my new time nailed down, she will let me know. When it’s set for sure, I will send an e-mail to all of our L/L Research send lists – the two newsletter lists and the UPI articles list – inviting people to come to the convention, and also to make a donation to our operating funds campaign. We still have a ways to go to secure funding for next year so I can stay out of the downstairs office and keep working up here on creative projects.

And I forwarded Ian’s request to Gary – he wanted to know how to access PayPal for our orders. We only need that link until Steve E. gets B4 launched, with its secure-site store, but meanwhile it is good to know, and I don’t know. But Gary knows. And soon, so will our worthy llresearch webmaster.

I spent the remainder of the afternoon finalizing the section I just wrote and choosing a quotation for the next section in Chapter 9 of 101.

Mick and I had a lovely date, and once again – this happened last Monday as well – I found myself experiencing full-body orgasms on and off for almost an hour after we made love. Sacred sexuality seems to be a thing that grows over time, even if one is getting old! Mick and I are both in our 60s now, yet our lovemaking continues to build in beauty and power. Thank you, Lord!

I offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation.

Today dawned blustery and cold. After Morning Offering I caught up with some personal e-mail and then devoted most of the rest of the morning to a letter to Talitha L, working with thoughts on her issues and sharing from the heart. It became a real blessing to me to share with her, and I felt most uplifted by the correspondence.

Geri and Leonard G arrived just as Mick and I were sitting down to lunch. They had eaten, but took some tea and visited with us while we ate. We got them settled in and then Mick watched football and I came upstairs to go through both address lists for the Christmas cards – the house list, which has all of L/L Research’s people on it as well as JLS customers and friends and family and the MacDuffie list. As always happens in the course of a year, there were additions, subtractions and corrections to make. By the time Mick called bath time, I had finished that most needed chore. We are leaving for Nebraska this next Friday, and by then, we need the mailing labels finalized and printed out.

Romi and Gary joined the G’s and Mick and me for this week’s study and meditation meeting, which included a channeling meditation tonight. Gary asked a series of excellent questions on accessing the gateway to intelligent infinity. I greatly look forward to reading that transcript!

Ro, Gary and I had a conference after the meeting on the question of BBS broadcasts versus webcasting the sessions live. We were responding to Steve E’s desire to keep on with the live webcasts after Romi resigns the work at Christmas. We decided that I would offer to wear a headset and send him the channeling via telephone, if he thought he would like to continue doing the webcasts from his remote location.

Romi and I also set our plans to take the G’s around Louisville tomorrow to familiarize them with the various neighborhoods. They are planning to move to Louisville early next year, after their house sells.

2007-11-22

Thanksgiving Day was blustering and cold, rains having come through with high winds during the night. I was wakeful and up by 3:00 AM, so I enjoyed editing the October 13th channeling, which was on the subject of finding some source of inspiration that made mundane work days into a more spiritual experience.

Editing this was in itself a spiritual experience. I was stopped by the need to locate and footnote a Biblical reference – “Lo, I am with you, even unto the end of the age.” – and I read through the red print in all four Gospels, trying to find this sentence. The last Gospel I consulted, being my least favorite, was Matthew. And the last verse in the last chapter of Matthew was the quotation for which I sought. It came to me that by this means I had spent most of the night hours steeped in Jesus’ words, and that this had transformed my sleepless weariness into vibrant, energetic joy. Spirit indeed works in mysterious ways!

After Morning Offering, while Mick went out to attend to two customers’ leaves, I welcomed Melissa, who had come down to Louisville to help me cook the rest of our feast. To Mick’s turkey and Gary’s peas and mashed potatoes she added spinach-artichoke dip, cranberry-orange relish and an enhanced version of Stovetop Stuffing, adding onions, celery, raisins and herbs. I concocted a tossed salad of five kinds of greens, tomatoes, radishes, carrots, onion, celery, currants, toasted pine nuts and apples, with herbs and lemon for flavor, and some canned biscuits.

Just as we finished our stint in the kitchen, our guests came: Carmen and the S’s, Eric S and his mother, Phyllis. Eric is Mick’s friend from homesteading days in Marion County, Kentucky, which dates back to the early ‘70s. Both he and his mom are fun to know, and of course Carmen is dear to us, having moved here from Texas to join our little band of seekers on meditation nights and to volunteer for L/L.

Mick came back at about 1:30 PM, and joined us at last. He was thoroughly wet but successful in catching up on his work. We had a lovely Thanksgiving! We eschewed football for conversation. The S’s brought wine, which we enjoyed with our delicious appetizer, and then we feasted on all of our bounty, plus cherry and pumpkin pie, courtesy of Mrs. Smith, who makes a creditable frozen pie. The company was good and the conversation excellent.

After the big meal, Mick did some chores and then watched college football in his room while we chatted further in the living room over our coffee and tea, until Eric and Phyllis had to leave, determined to arrive back home in Lebanon before dark. Then we girls watched two episodes of “4400”, a sci-fi series we had recommended to us by Ian, our web guy. I enjoyed it mightily. Melissa and Carmen left about 8:30.

I offered the prayer at the Gaia Meditation this evening.

2007-11-21

The skies were lowering this morning but the yellow ginkgo leaves covering our lawn and the bright yellow poplar leaves still on the trees made the light seem golden today as Jim and I offered our Morning Offering. The day started with temperatures near 70 F and dropped all day as stormy weather blows in from the west-northwest.

After Morning Offering Mick set out to mow and mow he did, although he was mighty wet by the end of his working day! Meanwhile I spent my morning editing the October 6th channeling session, which Aaron T recently transcribed.

After lunch, I worked on Chapter 9 of 101, having more success by far on focusing today. I finalized the first three sections of the chapter and finished the writing on the fourth section. It is flowing well, praise the Lord!

Gary and I sat down at lunch to collaborate on the plans for our next gathering, which shall be a channeling intensive. February seems a long time away, but it’s quite close in terms of getting all things planned and in order by the time the event rolls around. He liked the curriculum’s timing – plenty of time for breaks and meals – and we finalized various details. He’ll get the announcement up as soon as he can on site. We only have about 8 chairs left unclaimed in our circle even at this early date, so we will hope and pray that we can accommodate everyone who wishes to come.

We also chewed over aspects of the B4 site. The final details of the on-line store will still take a while, although finally our secure-site preparations are complete. So Gary and I talked about the image to be used for the theme of the site. The current version of it is simplistic, and Gary had spoken to me about its being Nintendo, where most people are used to X-Box these days. So I suggested that, while we still have time before we can launch the site, we ask Michelle M if she would be willing to crank the image up to X-Box level. I just hope she has the time to do that right now!

Ian wrote me concerning my use of Emoto’s water crystal photos in the speech at Mackinac Island on “The Keys of Unknowing”, saying that he had read an article which debunked Emoto’s work as non-scientific in that he looked for photos which proved his point, which is not a part of the scientific method. I asked Ian to include a reference to that article in the footnote we already have in the speech giving Emoto’s web site.

I got an e-mail from Steve E, B4’s webmaster, saying that Romi had asked him not to open the chat room on the site until some things were worked out and so I wrote to Romi asking for some time to converse with him on that subject next Saturday. He wrote back with a cheerful OK almost immediately. I think he’s concerned to take off aspects of the chat room having to do with our webcasting of the meditations, which we are discontinuing as of Christmas. Since they are now broadcast on www.bbsradio.com, the private webcasts are redundant.

Gerri G sent me her travel details. She will visit us over this next weekend with her husband, Leonard. They are moving to Louisville and Romi and I will take them around and show them some nice neighborhoods next Sunday.

I formalized a recipe for goosing packaged Stovetop Stuffing, so that Melissa can make it if I do not get to it tomorrow morning. She is coming bright and early to help prepare for our Thanksgiving feast. Yum!

We enjoyed a good conversation with Gary tonight and Mick offered the prayer at the close of the Gaia Meditation.

2007-11-20

It was as balmy as a May day as Mick went off to give a very full day of care to his customers’ lawns and leaves after Morning Offering. I spent the morning and the first part of the afternoon finishing the editing on the transcript of my speech at Mackinac Island on the inner or metaphysical aspects of the 2012 shift, which I called “The Keys to Unknowing”, taking the phrase from the Law of One material. That particular phrase is in Book V, I believe.

In the afternoon I worked on Chapter 9 of 101, getting less done than I had hoped, as my focus kept slipping. I suppose it is simply the influence of the fever I am carrying and the weakened condition I am experiencing right now. However I did make progress!

Romi came over to share conversation, dinner and an episode of “House” with Mick and me after our bath, and he offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation.

One of our most beloved and long-faithful friends of L/L Research, Don C, Sr., is having heart bypass surgery today and we ask all who read this to stop just a moment and send him some love.

2007-11-19

After Morning Offering, Mick sailed off under gray but warming skies to a full, full day of crunching and bagging leaves and all manner of other hard yard work while I came upstairs to edit the last session of the seventh weekend of nine of the Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues. Only two weekend’s worth to go now and Barbara and I will be at the stage of writing our introductory remarks and getting the manuscript put together in Ian’s inimitable fashion! Then it is off to Hampton Roads for consideration.

The rest of the morning was devoted to working out a proposed curriculum for the first Channeling Intensive Gathering next February here at Camelot. Gary wanted that as soon as possible so that he could write up the Gathering with all the details including the curriculum and put it on our home page so that people can begin to register. He is, as always, concerned about how many are coming and wants to get an idea of that as soon as he can. We can hold only so many in our living room, so the seating will be limited to about a dozen. I enjoyed thinking about just how to present the information I want to share. I’ll use parts of the Channeling Handbook as a study guide.

After lunch I worked on Chapter 9 of 101, writing another section and finalizing the first section. It is so good to see this coming along again after being stalled with this illness while I got used to working through my continuing muzzy headedness. This illness is certainly persistent. It has lasted almost two months now and never gotten better yet. My temperature was 100.1 F today, still low but over 100 for the first time. One cannot like that! But faith calls us to trust that all healing will happen in God’s time.

I sent part of the chapter to Romi, my technical advisor, to be sure that an analogy I used between opening the gateway to intelligent infinity in indigo/violet rays and opening a program with the mouse clicking on an icon holds water.

I got word from Chee at cosmiclighthouse.com that they will use my three articles on Indigo Children for their next three issues. I am delighted! I thought those articles were some of my best in 2006. They are quite thoroughly buried on the UPI web site, so very few people other than our “send” group ever read them. Now the IC articles are “out there”! BTW, if you are reading this and you are not on the send list for my UPI articles, just write contact@llresearch.org and Gary will fix you up. That goes for all three of our sends, the Light/Lines Newsletter, the Gatherings Newsletter and the UPI articles.

I offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2007-11-18

Still feverish and in pain with the earache, I chose to remain home from church today. I hope fervently that I may be well enough to go next week!! Missing church is far from my preference.

However, the day was just wonderful. The weather outside was quite chilly, but I was in all day, so was able to admire the incredible color of our burning bushes and the golden rain of the ginkgo leaves in our back yard. Their habit is to fall all at once, and by nightfall, not a leaf was left on the tree and all the leathery gold was collected in a pile along our back boundary, where those trees are.

As Mick and I so often do on Sunday, after the house was clean, we watched three movies. It was a fairly good week at the cinema in our living room! No spectacular hits, but no flops either.

We saw “Loving Annabelle” first, a lesbian love story which ran along formulaic lines – the rebellious wealthy student, the lonely, conflicted teacher and the jealous ex-lover. However the cinematography was gorgeous and the acting from Erin Kelly and Diane Gaidry was excellent. The elegiac pace was suitable to the subject and the whole production was harmonious with the story line. Gustine Fudickar was quite outstanding in her portrayal of a mean-spirited brat; one loved to hate her. Watch out for this actress! She has a lot of intensity.

Then we took a trip back in time to enjoy the film noir “The Good German”. Its story line was muddled and concerned the veniality of various of the characters as they searched for the eponymous good German. Everybody except George Clooney’s character seemed to die by Act V! Cate Blanchett made a wonderful heroine for black and white, with her pale skin and dark eyes and hair, and so did Clooney, with his trademark black-lashed eyes and strongly marked features. I could hear Humphrey Bogart saying some of the lines, and the last scene was reminiscent of “Casablanca”, where the heroine escapes the struggle in a DC-3.

Our third film, “Home of the Brave”, was a well-done soap opera about the woes of returning veterans. It was hard to watch as the film, as all of the ensemble did a great job with their roles and their agony was everywhere. In addition to Samuel L Jackson, Jessica Biel, Brian Presley and Fitty Cent Jackson all did fine jobs.

Mick offered the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2007-11-17

I am slowly getting used to having our meetings on Saturdays, but it still is novel enough that I forget what’s coming in the evening!

Mick and I usually designate Saturdays for doing chores we do not do during the week, but I wanted to work on my editing, as I suddenly have a backlog of four items to edit – a speech from Mackinac Island and three channeling sessions. I edited about half of the speech, after our Morning Offering.

I took time off in the afternoon to watch a game with Mick – Kentucky was beaten fairly soundly by Georgia – and felt so good, just sitting next to Mick and realizing that these are the good old days! We’re doing good things at our work and are having a wonderful time together. I felt overwhelmed with thankfulness. Life is so very sweet!

Later in the afternoon, I came up to edit some more, but Carmen showed up and offered to help me with whatever I might need, so instead of editing, she and I pulled my summer clothes out of the closet, finally, and got it ready to receive the winter things from the storage area in the basement.

Then we went to the basement gift wrapping area, to the left of the washer and dryer, where Bruce created such a special area for those two things – thanks again, Bruce! – and she and I got all the remaining presents wrapped except for the two which are on order but have not yet come.

Mick and I bathed and then joined Romi and Carmen for a light supper before the meeting. At the meeting we had a good talk around the circle and then a perfectly splendid silent meditation. This is a good group, and I meditate better with them than by myself because of the group energy.

Carmen, Romi and I remained in the living room after the meditation and had a most pleasant conversation while Jim finished the work of moving my winter clothes upstairs and taking the summer things down to basement storage. He discovered that Dan D. Lion had very thoroughly marked the pile of clothes waiting to go downstairs by urinating on it – instinct run amok! So I saw neither hide nor hair of Mick until a good hour later. He was washing everything! It took two loads to clean up the mess. Thank heavens it did not penetrate down to the bedspread of the bed in the guest room, where the clothes were piled.

We have a continuing problem with Dan D., as he stubbornly refuses to learn NOT to do that. He’s marked two guests’ purses, that being the worst of his sins. Now when we have a woman visitor for meditation, I ask her to put her purse in a safe place!

2007-11-16

After Morning Offering I worked on editing an Aaron/Q’uo session, the next-to-last in the seventh of the nine weekends of sessions. I rejoice to see that project moving along so steadily. I did not finish editing the session before I had to leave for lunch.

It was a real treat today to go to Crestwood for a luncheon at the Crestwood Civic Club with Dianne Stoess. We dined on great lady-food and it was all for a good cause. Then we stopped by the consignment store just a block or so down the street and I found some terrific duds for very little money, some long skirts and the long-sleeved tops which I enjoy wearing in the winter. It was great!

When I returned home, I finished the A/Q session. I was delighted to see that something Dianne and I had discussed turned up in the next page I edited. What a coincidence. Here is the selection:

(September 24, 1994)

Q’uo: “The seasons of the year have much in common with the seasons of an incarnation. The early creations of mind and brawn—will and steel and thought—are often used with most efficacy by the younger, less experienced entity who does not yet know that life is vain, work is empty and all is passing in an instant. Knowledge of this kind greatly cuts into that “eager beaver” mentality necessary for creating whatever dam or distortion might seem desirable.

In the summer of a life, the being expresses the epitomes of youth—the physical beauties, the keen sensing, the indefatigable energy, the beauty of form, the excellence of learning—like flowers. The summer’s children, embracing each other and life, create the seeds and in the blossom create the bait which catches the forces of procreation, inner creation and creation with others.

The prime of life is an autumn season where the entity reaps, harvests, winnows and then goes back to the threshing floor, seeking yet again until all has been harvested that was seeded in the youth of years, leaving the winter of life a seeming cold and undesirable time.

Yet to the mature entity this is the time of realized being, the time when the sense of proportion is most informed. It is the time when the most plain and skeletal truths may be seen, shared and preserved. The winter is the ripening of doing into being, the ripening of solitude into willingness to go in any direction in order to form bridges between the self and anyone who wishes to learn from and give to the entity. All of these seasons have their wisdom. They all have their drawbacks as well.”

After i finished with the editing, I worked on Chapter 9 of 101, finishing another section for the first time and going over the previous section until I was pleased. I think it will take only one more read-through for me to declare it finished. I felt very uplifted and inspirited, although physical woes continue. I think my sessions with Holly in the early morning are aiding my work and supporting me and I am so thankful!

Mick and I had a date after our bath and shared beautiful energy indeed. As I lay next to Mick after our love-making, I felt a heavy sweetness that poured from my very core and spread out throughout my body and I could feel myself literally glowing. I felt alert all night after that, unlike my usual habit of drowsing over dinner.

Mick offered the ending prayer at the Gaia Meditation.

2007-11-15

It got downright cold today, an enjoyable experience after all the heat this year. Lowering skies blessed us, a pearly-gray day with leaves falling fast now. I finished the Gatherings Newsletter after Mick and I made our Morning Offering. It’s a really long one, eight pages – and I was skimping on things, editing down the various offerings we had to share from so many good people. It’s wonderful to have that done!

In the afternoon I completed the very first section of what looks to be a long chapter on the indigo and violet rays for 101. This chapter is such a pleasure to write!

Donations continue to come in for the Operating Funds Campaign and I feel blessed indeed to be supported in this work by loving hearts.

I spent some time mulling over the curriculum for the first Channeling Intensive Gathering. I will work with my Channeling Handbook and organize the work at least partially from that.

The Camelot Project people wrote and said they would be in the southwest for a few months early in 2008, so I asked Gary to write them back and let them know I would be speaking at the International UFO Congress in Laughlin, Nevada, on February 28th. Perhaps they will be able to interview me there for their Project.

I offered the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2007-11-14

After Morning Offering we went to the funeral for Mac C. It was a long service and we only got out at about 12:30. Fortunately, Mick was able to finish his work for the day anyway!

I worked on the Gatherings Newsletter after lunch, adding the “Who Am I” section, including all the essays I received so far from Homecoming participants. Then I tried to work on Chapter 9 of 101, with indifferent success. Discomfort and muzzy-headedness were most distracting. I’ll hit it again tomorrow! I just know I will have far better results then.

We received the good news that the Camelot Project, an effort to record supposedly knowledgeable people’s views on 2012 and the great shift in consciousness, is interested in interviewing Mick and me. I’m very happy about this. They said they don’t like to interview channels and will be quite confrontational about the channeling, which is good, actually, since it tends to produce a far more interesting interview and line up the information well. I greatly look forward to that.

As a little signal that our Avalon Farm effort is moving along, we received the batch of egg cartons Melissa had ordered for our new chickens’ eggs. She will sell them up near Avalon, she thinks. Now to devise a little label for our cartons!

I prayed at the end of the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2007-11-13

We had a good Morning Offering in the rain and enjoyed the delightful sound of the water plashing on the roof and off the leaves as we did our readings, song, prayers and meditations. Afterwards, we got the chicken chili and the brownies we had made last night and took them over to Cecil C’s house. She was glad to see the food, as her home was overrun by family coming in for Mac’s funeral. “There’s our lunch!’ she said. They have an extended family of some size, and we offered her our extra bedrooms if she needs them. The funeral is tomorrow.

It was good timing – the rain stopped as soon as we had done our visiting and Jim set out on his mowing day, ready to crunch the leaves which had just been dampened by the rain and made easier to mow down. I spent the morning working on the Gatherings Newsletter, getting it perhaps halfway finished.

In the afternoon I made a beginning on Chapter 9 of 101. I am so glad we had the channeling on the two topmost rays, indigo and violet, last month, because the first quote in the chapter is from that session. It felt great to be writing again, even if I need to go slowly with my head so woozy.

Late in the afternoon I talked with Don N of BBS Radio. He offered our channeling sessions a new time slot, following their most popular talk show host! He also asked if we could produce a show every week instead of every other week. I talked with Gary and, later, with Romi when the Ro Man visited us, and we came up with a plan for doing just that. I am stoked!

We have long felt the need to get going on making all of our archived audiocassette tapes into CDs. This media transfer project is huge, since we have more than 1500 sessions now, and we really did not know just how to do it – from the beginning onward? From the latest back towards the first? But now we have a good way to do it, as for the BBS show it makes sense to transfer the latest sessions first and work backwards through the years. We need 52 sessions for the year, and I currently produce only 18 sessions, two each month from September through May. So the remainder will be older sessions.

The new time slots are 10 PM on Saturday nights and repeating at 6 AM on Sunday mornings, Pacific Time.

Steve Engratt sent an image which he proposes to use on B4, and I just loved it. Don Quixote is there, in Picasso’s wonderful drawing, sitting on his horse and looking at the dawning of the new age. It’s a great image! It’s so neat to be this close to launch!!

Coincidentally, Elihu E had forwarded me something which Frank DeM had sent him, and that gave me the perfect reason to write Frank by return e-mail and let Frank know how the Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues editing was coming. Frank has agreed to present the manuscript to Hampton Roads for us when it is finished.

Mick and I had a lovely energy exchange after our bath, the afterglow lighting up my evening, and he offered the closing prayer at the Gaia meditation tonight.

2007-11-13

We had a good Morning Offering and enjoyed the delightful sound of the rain outside plashing on the roof and off the leaves as we did our readings, song, prayers and meditations. Afterwards, we got the chicken chili and the brownies we had made last night and took them over to Cecil C’s house. She was glad to see the food, as her home was overrun by family coming in for Mac’s funeral. “There’s our lunch!’ she said. They have an extended family of some size, and we offered her our extra bedrooms if she needs them. The funeral is tomorrow.

It was good timing – the rain stopped as soon as we had done our visiting and Jim set out on his mowing day, ready to crunch the leaves which had just been dampened by the rain and made easier to mow down. I spent the morning working on the Gatherings Newsletter, getting it perhaps halfway finished.

In the afternoon I made a beginning on Chapter 9 of 101. I am so glad we had the channeling on the two topmost rays, indigo and violet, last month, because the first quote in the chapter is from that session. It felt great to be writing again, even if I need to go slowly with my head so woozy.

Late in the afternoon I talked with Don N of BBS Radio. He offered our channeling sessions a new time slot, following their most popular talk show host! He also asked if we could produce a show every week instead of every other week. I talked with Gary and, later, with Romi, when the Ro Man visited us, and we came up with a plan for doing just that. I am stoked!

We have long felt the need to get going on making all of our archived audiocassette tapes into CDs. This media transfer project is huge, since we have more than 1500 sessions now, and we really did not know just how to do it – from the beginning onward? From the latest back towards the first? But now we have a good way to do it, as for the BBS show it makes sense to transfer the latest sessions first and work backwards through the years. We need 52 sessions for the year, and I currently produce only 18 sessions, two each month from September through May. So the remainder will be older sessions.

The new time slots are 10 PM on Saturday nights and repeating at 6 AM on Sunday mornings, Pacific Time.

Steve Engratt sent me an image which he proposes to use on B4, and I just loved it. Don Quixote is there, in Picasso’s wonderful drawing, sitting on his horse and looking at the dawning of the new age. It’s a great image! It’s so neat to be this close to launch on www.bring4th.org!!

Coincidentally, Elihu E had forwarded me something which Frank DeM had sent him, and that gave me the perfect reason to write Frank by return e-mail and let Frank know how the Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues editing was coming. Frank has agreed to present the manuscript to Hampton Roads for us when it is finished.

Mick and I had a lovely energy exchange after our bath, the afterglow lighting up my evening, and he offered the closing prayer at the Gaia meditation tonight.

2007-11-13

We had a good Morning Offering and enjoyed the delightful sound of the rain outside plashing on the roof and off the leaves as we did our readings, song, prayers and meditations. Afterwards, we got the chicken chili and the brownies we had made last night and took them over to Cecil C’s house. She was glad to see the food, as her home was overrun by family coming in for Mac’s funeral. “There’s our lunch!’ she said. They have an extended family of some size, and we offered her our extra bedrooms if she needs them. The funeral is tomorrow.

It was good timing – the rain stopped as soon as we had done our visiting and Jim set out on his mowing day, ready to crunch the leaves which had just been dampened by the rain and made easier to mow down. I spent the morning working on the Gatherings Newsletter, getting it perhaps halfway finished.

In the afternoon I made a beginning on Chapter 9 of 101. I am so glad we had the channeling on the two topmost rays, indigo and violet, last month, because the first quote in the chapter is from that session. It felt great to be writing again, even if I need to go slowly with my head so woozy.

Late in the afternoon I talked with Don N of BBS Radio. He offered our channeling sessions a new time slot, following their most popular talk show host! He also asked if we could produce a show every week instead of every other week. I talked with Gary and, later, with Romi, when the Ro Man visited us, and we came up with a plan for doing just that. I am stoked!

We have long felt the need to get going on making all of our archived audiocassette tapes into CDs. This media transfer project is huge, since we have more than 1500 sessions now, and we really did not know just how to do it – from the beginning onward? From the latest back towards the first? But now we have a good way to do it, as for the BBS show it makes sense to transfer the latest sessions first and work backwards through the years. We need 52 sessions for the year, and I currently produce only 18 sessions, two each month from September through May. So the remainder will be older sessions.

The new time slots are 10 PM on Saturday nights and repeating at 6 AM on Sunday mornings, Pacific Time.

Steve Engratt sent me an image which he proposes to use on B4, and I just loved it. Don Quixote is there, in Picasso’s wonderful drawing, sitting on his horse and looking at the dawning of the new age. It’s a great image! It’s so neat to be this close to launch on www.bring4th.org!!

Coincidentally, Elihu E had forwarded me something which Frank DeM had sent him, and that gave me the perfect reason to write Frank by return e-mail and let Frank know how the Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues editing was coming. Frank has agreed to present the manuscript to Hampton Roads for us when it is finished.

Mick and I had a lovely energy exchange after our bath, the afterglow lighting up my evening, and he offered the closing prayer at the Gaia meditation tonight.

2007-11-13

We had a good Morning Offering and enjoyed the delightful sound of the rain outside plashing on the roof and off the leaves as we did our readings, song, prayers and meditations. Afterwards, we got the chicken chili and the brownies we had made last night and took them over to Cecil C’s house. She was glad to see the food, as her home was overrun by family coming in for Mac’s funeral. “There’s our lunch!’ she said. They have an extended family of some size, and we offered her our extra bedrooms if she needs them. The funeral is tomorrow.

It was good timing – the rain stopped as soon as we had done our visiting and Jim set out on his mowing day, ready to crunch the leaves which had just been dampened by the rain and made easier to mow down. I spent the morning working on the Gatherings Newsletter, getting it perhaps halfway finished.

In the afternoon I made a beginning on Chapter 9 of 101. I am so glad we had the channeling on the two topmost rays, indigo and violet, last month, because the first quote in the chapter is from that session. It felt great to be writing again, even if I need to go slowly with my head so woozy.

Late in the afternoon I talked with Don N of BBS Radio. He offered our channeling sessions a new time slot, following their most popular talk show host! He also asked if we could produce a show every week instead of every other week. I talked with Gary and, later, with Romi, when the Ro Man visited us, and we came up with a plan for doing just that. I am stoked!

We have long felt the need to get going on making all of our archived audiocassette tapes into CDs. This media transfer project is huge, since we have more than 1500 sessions now, and we really did not know just how to do it – from the beginning onward? From the latest back towards the first? But now we have a good way to do it, as for the BBS show it makes sense to transfer the latest sessions first and work backwards through the years. We need 52 sessions for the year, and I currently produce only 18 sessions, two each month from September through May. So the remainder will be older sessions.

The new time slots are 10 PM on Saturday nights and repeating at 6 AM on Sunday mornings, Pacific Time.

Steve Engratt sent me an image which he proposes to use on B4, and I just loved it. Don Quixote is there, in Picasso’s wonderful drawing, sitting on his horse and looking at the dawning of the new age. It’s a great image! It’s so neat to be this close to launch on www.bring4th.org!!

Coincidentally, Elihu E had forwarded me something which Frank DeM had sent him, and that gave me the perfect reason to write Frank by return e-mail and let Frank know how the Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues editing was coming. Frank has agreed to present the manuscript to Hampton Roads for us when it is finished.

Mick and I had a lovely energy exchange after our bath, the afterglow lighting up my evening, and he offered the closing prayer at the Gaia meditation tonight.

2007-11-13

We had a good Morning Offering in the rain and enjoyed the delightful sound of the water plashing on the roof and off the leaves as we did our readings, song, prayers and meditations. Afterwards, we got the chicken chili and the brownies we had made last night and took them over to Cecil C’s house. She was glad to see the food, as her home was overrun by family coming in for Mac’s funeral. “There’s our lunch!’ she said. They have an extended family of some size, and we offered her our extra bedrooms if she needs them. The funeral is tomorrow.

It was good timing – the rain stopped as soon as we had done our visiting and Jim set out on his mowing day, ready to crunch the leaves which had just been dampened by the rain and made easier to mow down. I spent the morning working on the Gatherings Newsletter, getting it perhaps halfway finished.

In the afternoon I made a beginning on Chapter 9 of 101. I am so glad we had the channeling on the two topmost rays, indigo and violet, last month, because the first quote in the chapter is from that session. It felt great to be writing again, even if I need to go slowly with my head so woozy.

Late in the afternoon I talked with Don N of BBS Radio. He offered our channeling sessions a new time slot, following their most popular talk show host! He also asked if we could produce a show every week instead of every other week. I talked with Gary and, later, with Romi when the Ro Man visited us, and we came up with a plan for doing just that. I am stoked!

We have long felt the need to get going on making all of our archived audiocassette tapes into CDs. This media transfer project is huge, since we have more than 1500 tapes of sessions now, and we really did not know just how to do it – from the beginning onward? From the latest back towards the first? But now we have a good way to do it, as for the BBS show it makes sense to transfer the latest sessions first and work backwards through the years. We need 52 sessions for each year, and I currently produce only 18 sessions, two each month from September through May. So the remainder will be older sessions.

The new time slots are 10 PM on Saturday nights and repeating at 6 AM on Sunday mornings, Pacific Time.

Steve Engratt sent me an image which he proposes to use on B4, and I just loved it. Don Quixote is there, in Picasso’s wonderful drawing, sitting on his horse and looking at the dawning of the new age. It’s a great image! It’s so neat to be this close to launch on www.bring4th.org!!

Coincidentally, Elihu E had forwarded me something which Frank DeM had sent him, and that gave me the perfect reason to write Frank by return e-mail and let Frank know how the Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues editing was coming. Frank has agreed to present the manuscript to Hampton Roads for us when it is finished.

Mick offered the closing prayer at the Gaia meditation tonight.

2007-11-12

Our neighbor Mac C died today, suddenly, of a heart attack while playing tennis. He was Mick’s age, I think, just 60. It was a total surprise. He was in good health. I honor him today. He and his wife, Cecil, have been good neighbors and friends for 23 years. I remember the first year we lived here, Mac and Cecil came and got Mick and me and took us to our first Anchorfest, a local celebration of fall. They introduced us around and made us feel welcome. Mick and Mac have been professional colleagues ever since Mick took up gardening for others, for Mac was a builder and they often spoke concerning clients they had in common. Fare thee well, dear brother, as you enter larger life. We love you dearly.

After Morning Offering, Mick set out for a very full day, as the leaves are falling thickly now and he is crunching and bagging his heart out! I spent the morning hours getting all my materials ready for writing the Gatherings Newsletter. This will be our most generous edition ever, as there is so much to share.

After lunch, I spent the afternoon finishing my quotes database for Chapter 9, slotting in the last seven pages of violet-ray material from the Homecoming collection and then adding quotes from the October 27th session we just had from the Q’uo principle on the indigo and violet rays. I am now ready to write that chapter at last.

I continue to be unwell, with the left ear starting to close as well as the right. The challenge is to remember why I may be grateful and thankful to be alive rather than dwelling on my discomfort, which was pretty intense all day. Mac’s death is certainly a blunt instrument of a training aid in that wise! I may be unwell, but I can work on this book, get out the newsletter and continue to serve in whatever way spirit leads me.

The phrase from an anthem comes to me: “He hath done all things well.”

Amen.

2007-11-11

Ah, Sundays! They are blessed days of rest for Mick and me. I remain feverish and uncomfortable with the infection in my ear and very woozy, so I again missed church – and I did miss it! It’s a shame to be away from the comfortable rituals which have been a part of my life from its beginning. But there was no way I could see to accomplish all I need to do to sing in the choir, climb the stairs a couple of times there and last through the service. Hopefully this condition will pass soon.

So I rested, enjoying Mick’s company and our three movies. The kitties were especially cute all day, as they relished having us seated and available for pats and were at their most affectionate and endearing.

I was just crazy about the film “Talk to Me” and especially about Don Cheadle’s Oscar-caliber performance in the role of a convict who becomes a radio show host and comic. Having seen Cheadle tear up his role in “Hotel Rwanda”, and having been impressed with the utter gentility and civility of his voice and mannerisms in that film, I was entranced with his raspy voice and gutter talk in this one, which were so different that I did not even recognize him. Jim had to tell me who he was! Now that is true acting. The actor had become a character who was so fully formed that Cheadle, the actor, disappeared completely!

Martin Sheen offered a delightfully nuanced performance as a manager who remained torn between totally paradoxical feelings about the jive-talking Petey Green, Cheadle’s character. It was such fun to watch Sheen go, as he wore the same type suits he did on TV as the president in “West Wing” yet managed to shave 40 or so IQ points off his character's mental processes.

The entire ensemble was excellent, as were all the production values of the film, and the screenplay was Oscar-worthy. I was dazzled. And I was deeply moved as well, as the burden of the story carried me through the sad days when Martin Luther King was assassinated. This film was one in a million!

“We Are Marshall” was next and I thoroughly enjoyed it. Matthew McConaughey created a quirky and likeable character as the coach who accepted the job after Marshall University’s entire football team went down in a horrific plane crash, leaving only three of the original football team alive. It was upbeat and sentimental, a positive and fun film.

“Mr. Brooks” rounded out our personal film festival today. It was a downer for sure! I just wonder how writers think up such twisted and demonic plots! But the players were excellent. Kevin Costner was very good indeed as the serial killer and Demi Moore played her detective role well also. I was quite taken with Dane Cook’s acting; he really tore up the supporting role of a most unpleasant voyeur-turned-killer. The twists and turns of the plot were never-ending and one character was more depraved than the next. Yet the film did fascinate me.

All in all, a great movie day!

2007-11-10

Keeping to my habit of doing alternative work on Saturdays, after Morning Offering I made a batch of curried egg salad with Melissa’s Avalon eggs while Mick cleaned the kitchen. Then we took a trip down I-64 south to 127 and from there south to Perryville to visit Steve and Roxanne, otherwise known as Smut and Fox, at their farm. It was a lovely drive and a very good visit with old, old friends – Smut and Mick played baseball together in grade school and were on the same sports teams throughout their childhood and high school days in Nebraska, and Smut moved here after visiting Jim on his land in Marion County, Kentucky in the ‘70s and falling in love with this area. They have built their own home and outbuildings on their farm and it is wonderful to behold!

We got back just in time for the regular public study and meditation meeting of L/L Research. It was a small gathering, with Romi and Carmen present. We had a good talk around the circle and then had the channeling, with Romi recording it for BBS and sending it out to the private chat room. He will stop doing the chat room after Christmas, as it keeps fouling up and also as it has become redundant since BBS broadcasts it twice, about a week later than the actual meeting.

After the meeting Mick caught up on the football scene while Carmen and I read. It was a most pleasant evening and the channeling was interesting. The question was about surrender and grace. I look forward to reading it.

2007-11-09

This was an amazing day in that I got every last piece of Christmas shopping done. My list is complete! There are some things on order which have not come in, and the presents I bought today are not wrapped, so there is still a bit of wrapping to do before I can rest easy that all is prepared. But it feels incredible to have this project finished except for the small details of wrapping less than a dozen gifts and writing my notes to my family members.

After Morning Offering, Melissa and I set out to accomplish the last bits of buying – a Christian book store for my nephew, Ted; a children’s book store for my nephew, Fluke (pronounced Folk, a Thai name); Feeder’s Supply for catnip toys for the kitties and a florist to buy a box long enough to contain Helen D’s teasels. We had lunch along the way, and Melissa gave me a good rundown on Avalon matters. She is investigating what she needs to do to claim the calf, Vinny, which has adopted us. She had a visit from a county agent and got all sorts of good information on future crops, where to put them and how to work on our access road. Next week she is expecting a dowser and a forestry agent who will show her which trees to cut and which to save in various places.

She and I also stopped by Wal Mart to find Melissa two new 5-gallon water storage containers, the old ones being smaller and far less easy to handle.

I finished the day’s gift-buying by finding and purchasing for Melissa her big “bonus” Christmas present, one which should make her quality of life on Avalon better: a two-burner portable Coleman propane cooktop and a portable Coleman propane oven. The oven holds a 9x13” baking pan on its one rack, so should serve her well. Sears has very nice ones for far less than I expected.

I also treated myself to a new granny gown and some knee socks, which one can hardly find in stores any more, but which I constantly use. I have worn my old ones so long that the fbric is no longer warm on the gowns and the elastic is gone on the socks. The Vermont Country Store on-line store is a wonderful resource for those who are looking for outdated items like these.

Mick and I were both utterly exhausted by the day’s work. His day was arduous, with a couple of extra chores for customers making it a long day for him. Although my day was infinitely easier than his physically, I am still feverish and my ear and throat were really sharply painful all day, so what little I did do was at the limit of my energy reserves! So we slept more than we conversed or watched TV after our bath, rousing at 8:30 for supper and then the Gaia Meditation. Gary prayed at the end.

It was a supernally lovely day here in Kentucky, the harvest sky brilliant blue against a golden sun and cool breezes at about 60 F – the perfect day for going about and doing chores.

2007-11-08

This was quite an alternative day for me. Not for Mick – after Morning Offering he went, as is his usual wont, to mow, clear, and otherwise garden with the devas and nature spirits. I am very lucky in his type of work. He seldom leaves the neighborhood. I may not see him all day, but he is near at hand and that warms my heart.

I called Carmen after Morning Offering to discover whether she would be interested in helping me by wrapping Christmas gifts for me today. She agreed, and I offered her some lunch out at Ruby Tuesday’s for a thank you treat. By the time she came, I had found boxes for all the gifts that were not so kind as to be rectangular in shape.

And after our delicious meal and a good conversation together, Carmen wrapped every single one! What a blessing. It is so good to be caught up with this process. There are still gifts coming in the mail which will need wrapping, and I still have gifts to find for three children in my family, my brothers’ kids. But that is all! I am close to being through with that endeavor. Having this done ahead of Christmastide makes the blessed holiday far more enjoyable. I can have a holy Christmas rather than bouncing around at the last minute finding gifts!

I got a manicure and pedicure during the afternoon, my monthly treat. It’s good to be groomed once again!

The only L/L Research business I did today was to encourage Gary to follow up on a suggestion which David W. had given Gary last time they talked. David had recently been interviewed by Project Camelot and thought I would be a good candidate for the same group. They are collecting videos of interviews with people who have something to say about 2012. Since we have a good deal of channeled material which deals with this issue, I think I’m a good candidate for their interviewers too.

I also agreed to keep talking to Wynn F. He really wants to collaborate with me. And I thanked him for recommending me as an interview subject for a show called Common Ground, out of Boston.

In the evening Mick watched U of L lose honorably to the Mountaineers while I read and did puzzles. Mick offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation. And we had a lovely date.

2007-11-07

This is the 23rd anniversary of Don’s death, and it was most coincidental that this was the day that I received an invitation to speak on channeling ET sources at the 2008 International UFO Congress in February. This channeling effort was Don’s life’s work. The coincidence made the day’s sadness sweeter by far, for it reminds me that I am, indeed, still working for my beloved companion. I am faithful to the task which he and I began. Mick and I carry on. I ended in thankfulness rather than sorrow. I still miss his physical presence keenly.

After Morning Offering Mick went to work and I edited the second session of the seventh weekend of Aaron/Q’uo sessions. It is good to see this project sweeping inexorably towards completion now, after a fifteen-year hiatus in getting it finished. There are only two more weekends’ worth of sessions to edit after this lot.

Before lunch I had a counseling session with Shelly H, a most enjoyable and uplifting conversation with a wonderful soul. It was amazing how the A/Q session I had just edited, as well as my Holly Journal entry for this morning, fit perfectly into our talk. Spirit was truly with us.

In the afternoon I edited the channeling session we had on September 27th, which concerned the indigo and violet rays. It is good material and I will add some of it to my quotes database for this chapter 9, which I am in the midst of creating. It’s excellent timing that it should be transcribed so soon, and I have Gary to thank for that. He did it on his own time, not on the clock. Gary continues to volunteer for L/L Research, which is remarkable, given his busy life and the fact that he is my admin now and much involved with L/L matters. Kudos to the Bean Man!

When Nicole B invited me to speak, she asked if I would produce a blurb for their publicity, and I did that before quitting for the day, sending that and my photo to her. She will pay me an honorarium which hopefully will pay the cost of Jim’s ticket out to Laughlin. They pay all his hotel cost and give him the same packet of tickets to the banquets and so forth that I get as a speaker, but they do not cover his airplane ticket. Nicole also promised to order a hospital bed for me, which was very gracious of her.

I am happy to say that the Frapper map of L/L Research people, which had over 700 people on it at last count, is back! It had disappeared from the site and we are thrilled that they were able to reinstate it with no loss of data. It is wonderful to feel that sense of spiritual community growing.

I offered the ending prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2007-11-06

We are finally getting seasonable weather, near to freezing at night and rising into the 50s by day. It’s lovely weather and the autumn color is at its peak, finally.

After Morning Offering Mick set out on another incredibly full day of work, made even harder because both of his chain saws seized up at the same time, and he still had one 30-foot-long, fairly slender branch to dismantle. He sawed it by hand! Indomitable Mick!

I was feeling very uncomfortable and estimated that I would do better going to Just Creations to Christmas shop this morning than try to create the Gatherings Newsletter. It was a beautiful drive in to Frankfort Avenue and a very successful shopping trip. I now have gifts for all but the children on my list. I’ll make a separate run for those, perhaps with Melissa this Friday.

In the afternoon I worked on creating the sorted quotes for Chapter 9 of 101. I finished the Indigo Ray quotes and got six pages into the Violet Ray quotes. Only seven pages to go and I will be ready to write, at least from the standpoint of having my supporting information prepared and ready to use.

i did a bit of e-mail at the end of the day. Steve E had proposed a way of making money on the new site, which I discouraged, not feeling it appropriate. However I greatly encouraged him to keep thinking! We need income for L/L Research. I just want the ways we acquire that income to feel good to me. I also encouraged him to use Hanasura's images as he suggested, in a kind of revolving slide show on site. That sounds like fun.

And I asked Gary to obtain audio versions of my last two radio interviews. I think they both went well, and I would like to get them transcribed and up on site.

I yearn for some sign of getting physically better but so far, that is not there except that my “helicopter” – the noise of my pulse in my ear, whoosh, whoosh, whoosh – is somewhat quieter. I vowed this evening to focus on that and try to work around the rest of the symptoms.

Jim offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2007-11-05

After Morning Offering Mick sailed off into a very full mowing and gardening day. I came upstairs and worked, slowly and with frequent pauses, but far more successfully than for the last few days.

I wrote my editor at UPI to give hr a progress report. I imagine it will take me a couple more weeks to feel mentally competent enough to write my column again, though of course I hope to be pleasantly surprised.

George K had written to offer a reader review of A Book of Days and that gave me the idea to create a reader review section on our upcoming B4 order form so that other readers as well can review all of our books, as they wish. I shared that with Gary and Steve E.

Gary and I went through the last of the hoops needed to get that secure-site online store working. The merchant service we have chosen to be our on-line bank needed documents – a cancelled check; our credit card information – and signatures from Jim and me. We got that accomplished and now nothing stands in the way of launching the very first feature of the B4 site! I am excited! Now that we have severed our ties to amazon.com and other vendors of our books, we need that secure site for people to be able to click their way through a credit card order with the same ease that amazon.com offers.

I also wrote Wynn F, who had invited me to co-host an inspirational radio show with him. I found, when I sensed into how I could truly link with him, that our ways are too far apart for me to feel safe and comfortable collaborating with him. It seems a pity, since we both love The Law of One and we are good friends, but there it is. I need to stay within my integrity.

And I did some on-line shopping, both for Christmas and for Melissa’s farm needs. I found a very nice present which I ordered for four gentlemen, who are far harder to find thoughtful gifts for than women – a real coup! And I found Melissa a bio-dynamic lunar calendar for 2008 as well as a book on raising llamas and an on-line newsletter on raising alpacas. And I printed out for her a 25-page directory of sources for things like bio-dynamic feed and other farm needs.

In the afternoon I worked for a while on Chapter 9 of 101 for the first time in a long time. It felt good, but I could only work so long before taking a break from the intensity of focus. By nightfall, when weary Mick at last came home, I was as weary as he.

Poor Mick! In addition to a very full schedule, including cutting up two felled trees of considerable size for a customer, he found that a lawn he had been sure would NOT need mowing DID – another two-hour job! He really hustled! And got everything done, by golly. What a guy!

We enjoyed a sweet lovemaking after our bath and had a quiet evening, offering the Gaia Meditation together with Gary. I prayed at the end tonight.

2007-11-04

I felt far less uncomfortable today, although both eyes were still painful and the left one was swollen half shut, still. I stayed home from church and rested.

It was a lovely Sunday off for Mick and me. After Mick had the house shining, we settled in to our three movies over lunch. Our first treat was a slight but amusing film by Jackie Chan called “The Myth”. Only watch this one if you are a Chan fan! The subtitles are pervasive and the plot negligible. Chan’s personality. acrobatics and martial arts skills always tickle me, so I enjoyed it. The conventions of Asian films are different than American films and I found it ludicrous that a princess in peril could not jump to safety instead of waiting endlessly for someone to save her! Oh well. To each his own.

“The Hoax” was up next. Richard Gere was engaging as a rascal of a writer who decided to create an “authorized biography” of Howard Hughes. I ceased watching the action about halfway through and escaped to doing a puzzle while the rest of the movie ran. I was thoroughly uncomfortable with the constant lying necessary to the true story. What possesses people to create a Big Lie? It happens often enough! Again, to each his own!

Our third film was “Rain”, a sweet story of a young woman raised in the slums but Cinderella’d away to a performing arts school by her grandmother’s largesse. Faye Dunaway was terrific as the grandmother and Brooklyn Sudano did a fine job with her leading role as the talented teenager at risk. Khandi Alexander also shone as Rain’s foster mother. I could not discover the name of the actor who played the villain of the piece, but he tore up that role with capped teeth and an air of utter menace, whoever he was!

Our quiet pursuit of filmdom had taken Mick and me through supper, so we offered the Gaia Meditation, with Mick praying at the end, and then called Mom McCarty before coming to the upstairs office for an interview with James Arthur Jancik of “Feet to the Fire”. It was a two-hour conversation and I think it went well enough. Jancik had listened to most of The Law of One via a reading program and was quite familiar with the material, which helped so very much!

2007-11-03

Today was a bit tough for me, as another wave of illness hit me during Morning Offering. My left eye rapidly swelled almost shut and was very painful all day, while my left-side sinuses ran and ran and i had a fierce headache. It's odd because it's my right side - ear, neck and eye - that has been the "bad" one, and remains so. I suppose this is the natural path of this illness. I shall be very glad when the healing process progresses more.

I was uncomfortable enough that I hoped to sleep the day away, but the eye hurt worse when it was closed than when it was open, so I stayed awake instead and whiled away my time pleasantly enough, distracting myself with reading and puzzles and watching football with Mick. Mick said he really enjoyed seeing Navy beat Notre Dame for the first time in 43 years. His own team, Nebraska, racked up 37 points only to lose by the widest margin ever.

Mick’s attitude towards watching football games has changed a lot since the days of Nebraska supremacy. Now he watches whichever game is proving to be a good one, which seems to me to be more balanced. I always enjoy watching with him as he so loves the game, but it is more fun these days, with his intensity level down a bit over whether Nebraska wins or not.

Mick planted another round of tulips in the back yard and now says there is just one more place he wants to plant and our whole yard will be alive with tulips next spring. They are so lovely! It is a wonderful thing to which to look forward.

Carmen came for our study and meditation meeting – Romi is visiting his brother this weekend and they are going fishing – and we had a very sweet silent meditation together with Mick after talking around the circle. Carmen and Gary are the only two people I know with whom I can hang by reading together, as both of them also enjoy reading. So while Mick did all manner of chores after the meditation, Carmen and I read happily, she in her book and I in mine.

2007-11-02

The day dawned so beautifully! This is the very peak of the autumn colors, with a few trees still green, a few mostly fired up and finished and the vast bulk of trees and bushes in glorious flames and swathes of color.

After Morning Offering I had time only to write in my Camelot Journal before going to the Images Salon, where I was transformed into a red-head. I also had a facial to help my poor skin, which has been struggling under the weight of illness and medication. I emerged, four hours later, a newly revived Christmas elf, ready for not only the holidays but a determined attempt to maximize the work I can do while still in the midst of this ear ache and associated symptoms. Nothing lifts the morale like a new “do”! Yum!

The outing made me very weary, and other than stopping by LabCorp on the way home to give my blood for monthly tests, I let that be all I did today. I snoozed through most of the evening, rousing for dinner and the Gaia Meditation. Jim prayed a lovely prayer at the ending.

Indeed, we were in such perfect charity tonight that we spent considerable time just soaking it in, holding hands and being quiet together. We call it our bubble. The combined energy of the two of us makes a kind of bubble or energy field of joy, peace and power, irrespective of how the world wags or even our own state of health. What an incredible blessing!

Mick has completed 35 weeks of his 39-week mowing season now! He is elated that what he has left to do with almost all his customers is simply crunch their leaves as they fall and put their yards to bed for their winter’s sleep when all the leaf-fall is ended. It is a wonderful time of year for him, with the off-season coming, when he will be able to do chores around here that have been waiting all summer.

And he can be justly proud. He has had a record year for income in spite of the draught, which cut at least in half his opportunities to mow. It is his creativity in finding other work that has pulled him through.

The best moment tonight was when Mick decided to celebrate Friday night by dancing. He was splendid to see, graceful, powerful and expressive. I wish he had a wider audience. He is a dancer to his fingertips and a sacred agent of beauty.

2007-11-01

Happy All-Saints Day (or All-Hallows Day, which is where Hallowe’en got its moniker! Other than keeping the Holly Journal and the Camelot Journal, doing Morning Offering and the Gaia Meditation, I did no L/L Research work today – sad but true.

I did go to the ear specialist, who said I have a dandy case of fluid on the ear. He says treating this is a slow process, short of surgery. He told me to keep taking the massive doses of Sudafed and gave me a cortisone nose spray, which he feels will probably eventually solve the problem, perhaps within two months. If it does not work after three months, he will do the minor surgery needed to pierce the ear drum and drain the fluid that way.

I was disappointed. I had hoped that there could be a decisive “cure” so that I could get my brain back to normal. No such luck! The doctor did validate my feeling of being small-brained because of this condition. He says it is entirely normal to experience wooziness, since my hearing is sharply impaired and the inflammation and pressure in my sinuses and adenoids changes the way I see and otherwise perceive, and also since everything I am taking to solve the problem is woozy-making stuff.

I have already been trying to work again, as I can, and I shall persevere. It is a good exercise in rightful work, where I enjoy what I can do and press on in joy regardless of how impaired my speed of working is, compared to normal.

Melissa came down from Avalon to do town chores, bringing with her a tale of our newest farm resident, a calf. Not all her efforts could persuade the animal, whom she christened Vinny, to stay on the Kidwell side of the fence. after five days of struggle, she gave in. Vinny has not been treated at all well. He is blind in one eye and it is possible that he was dumped off by a farmer who did not want to raise a calf that was damaged.

Vinny has taken to Melissa, sleeping outside the cabin at night and staying close in the near meadow, although there are no fences. In bio-dynamic systems a mammal is needed for balancing the farm, and I guess spirit sent Vinny to us. She has notified all the area vets that she has Vinny, but no one has claimed him. If it stays that way, we have acquired a steer! Thanks be to God.

Mick and I shared a most beautiful date together late in the evening and, earlier, welcomed Sandy S. for dinner and conversation. She is an old, old friend of Mick’s from college days. Her work has brought her here and may do so again. Sandy is wonderful company and we enjoyed her visit greatly. She and Mick had driven up to see Avalon while I was at the doctor’s.

2007-10-31

After Morning Offering I came up to my office and attempted to work, but I got almost nothing done in the morning, and only was able to begin the writing of the Gatherings Newsletter in the afternoon. My right ear and the whole right side of my head were very uncomfortable and achy and my mind simply would not work. So I enjoyed reading instead, giving up the attempt to labor for L/L for the day and vowing to have another whack at it tomorrow.

Mick and I welcomed Romi for Hallowe’en night. We gave candy to several trick-or-treaters and enjoyed pleasant conversation and the Gaia Meditation together.