Tuesday, October 31, 2006

2006-10-30

After Morning Offering Mick went into the much warmer weather to crunch leaves. He is working extra jobs today so that he can be with me at the hospital on Thursday for the “cysto-hydro” procedure. So I did not see him for lunch.

I worked on Hitler’s story for the morning. There is a lot there and I am trying to read with an eye to telling the heart of his story. Since he was alive so recently, there is a ton of information about his life. I am finding so much good material! The internet is a marvelous information resource.

After lunch I knocked out a whole bunch of errands that needed attention. The parish is gathering its pledges for the year and I started my part of the process by signing my pledge card and adding it to the “pony express” saddlebag I’d received from the person in front of me and calling the next person on my saddlebag list to arrange a time to take them the saddlebag so they can have their turn at “ponying up” for the next church year.

Then I counted the money given me for choir CDs in the last couple of weeks and took that by St. Luke’s office. There I ran into Patty L, who needed a volunteer for calling everyone and letting them know that there will be a reception celebrating Fr. Joe’s fourth anniversary at St. Luke’s this next Sunday. I shall need to do that tomorrow, for people between R and Z in the Parish Directory.

Yet another church task awaited my attention, as I needed to create a sign-up sheet for November 5th, when the choir will be in charge of volunteering for the photo directory photo-taking paperwork while parishioners come in for their sittings. I will get that filled out at choir rehearsal Wednesday.

There were quite a few thank you notes to write at the desk and other paperwork there, and I cleaned the desk up, generating about a dozen letters. I filled out a questionnaire for one doctor and completed more paperwork for admissions on this Thursday’s procedure.

When the desk was at last clear I sat down with some e-mails. I thanked Rick C for his work so far on the remastering project and assured him that L/L Research would reimburse him for a card that had to be replaced in his computer which he needs to do our job – which he is doing completely for free!

My friend, Dianne S, was riveted by news of an upcoming event in Tennessee being held by those who would like to free the media from its death grip by government and entertainment forces which have turned media news into less by far than the full truth and indeed seem to emulate the propaganda machine in Germany before WWII. I told her I’d love to go but would have to rest a lot and asked her just how much she wanted to go. She said that to be honest, she did not have the requisite energy either. It all sounded so good, she just wanted to be there. We agreed to pass it up.

Several other personal e-mails were answered until bath time was called.

The rest of the evening was spent, as we so often do spend that time, watching Amy Goodman’s news and Link TV’s World Music program, getting some supper, visiting with Gary and offering the Gaia Meditation. I was sleepy and drowsed through a lot of the evening hours. Jim and I came up for a last snuggle with the kitties and said good night around 11 PM.

Monday, October 30, 2006

2006-10-29

This was a lovely Sabbath! While Jim cleaned the house, I helped sing a service for St. Luke’s parish while the Bishop confirmed eight people – a half-year crop. The church is swelling fast here, and we have two visitations from the Bishop per year to confirm the new members. It was a special day for me because I had a solo and sang it OK. I do not like exposed, high parts, and this one had a high G sharp. It was a part of a lovely piece by Brench Boden, a lyrical, modern, jazzy rendition of Psalm 8.

Since this was a fifth Sunday we had a break from the public meetings today and spent our afternoon and early evening watching three movies, Whee, three, count them, and dozing. We were both awake all the way through the middle movie, though, “A Good Woman” – a modernization of Oscar Wilde’s deliciously cynical and witty “Lady Windermere’s Fan” which brings it from the 1820s to the 1930s – enjoying its incredible spate of cleverness and wisdom.

It was a perfect leisure day! We said a fond good night around 11 PM after offering the Gaia Meditation at 9.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

2006-10-28

After Morning Offering, Jim and Gary set out to crunch Friday’s leaves, as the rains had finally dissipated. I was feeling much better, but was still significantly under the weather, so I went quite slowly all day, reading up on various villains and ultimately choosing Idi Amin’s story as my second example. His service-to-self factor was really overt and “out there”, which was what I hoped to see. Many are the figures in modern history whose actions have been suspect, but for an exemplar one want a truly bad-acting guy. And yes, I did check out the ladies in the form of Lucrecia Borgia, but she was just one of a large bunch of Borgias, all worse than the next but none obviously the champeen!

By bath time I had written the text on Idi Amin and vetted it. Now I have Hitler’s story to tell, and Chapter Two will be ready to read over and finish in its first rough draft form.

Jim was happy to finish his chores in time to watch Michigan play Northwestern, winning handily. I hung out with him and read first in my romance novel and then in a book on diet which Papa sent me for my birthday. It explains the need to eat more for breakfast in a way I can understand, so I will attempt to change my dietary habits a bit, once I run out of the soft “Alouette” cheese which I so enjoy on nut thins, presently, for brekky. I’ll substitute oatmeal, as recommended – the book does not specify oatmeal but rather bulk and roughage. Oatmeal is about the easiest kind of bulk for my system to absorb.

We offered the Gaia Meditation along with Gary, who had put in a long day at the L/L Research Inbox, with me offering the ending prayer, and then Jim and I stayed up late, since it was clock-changing day. Jim changed all the smoke alarm batteries as well, to the kitties’ dismay as he tested them all and they squealed obligingly – the smoke detectors, not the cats! It was a lovely evening for us, and one that comes only once a year, when one gets that delicious extra hour – which one must oh, so grudgingly give back next April when daylight savings time kicks in.

2006-10-28

After Morning Offering, Jim and Gary set out to crunch Friday’s leaves, as the rains had finally dissipated. I was feeling much better, but was still significantly under the weather, so I went quite slowly all day, reading up on various villains and ultimately choosing Idi Amin’s story as my second example. His service-to-self factor was really overt and “out there”, which was what I hoped to see. Many are the figures in modern history whose actions have been suspect, but for an exemplar one want a truly bad-acting guy. And yes, I did check out the ladies in the form of Lucrecia Borgia, but she was just one of a large bunch of Borgias, all worse than the next but none obviously the champeen!

By bath time I had written the text on Idi Amin and vetted it. Now I have Hitler’s story to tell, and Chapter Two will be ready to read over and finish in its first rough draft form.

Jim was happy to finish his chores in time to watch Michigan play Northwestern, winning handily. I hung out with him and read first in my romance novel and then in a book on diet which Papa sent me for my birthday. It explains the need to eat more for breakfast in a way I can understand, so I will attempt to change my dietary habits a bit, once I run out of the soft “Alouette” cheese which I so enjoy on nut thins, presently, for brekky. I’ll substitute oatmeal, as recommended – the book does not specify oatmeal but rather bulk and roughage. Oatmeal is about the easiest kind of bulk for my system to absorb.

We offered the Gaia Meditation along with Gary, who had put in a long day at the L/L Research Inbox, with me offering the ending prayer, and then Jim and I stayed up late, since it was clock-changing day. Jim changed all the smoke alarm batteries as well, to the kitties’ dismay as he tested them all and they squealed obligingly – the smoke detectors, not the cats! It was a lovely evening for us, and one that comes only once a year, when one gets that delicious extra hour – which one must oh, so grudgingly give back next April when daylight savings time kicks in.

2006-10-28

After Morning Offering, Jim and Gary set out to crunch Friday’s leaves, as the rains had finally dissipated. I was feeling much better, but was still significantly under the weather, so I went quite slowly all day, reading up on various villains and ultimately choosing Idi Amin’s story as my second example. His service-to-self factor was really overt and “out there”, which was what I hoped to see. Many are the figures in modern history whose actions have been suspect, but for an exemplar one want a truly bad-acting guy. And yes, I did check out the ladies in the form of Lucrecia Borgia, but she was just one of a large bunch of Borgias, all worse than the next but none obviously the champeen!

By bath time I had written the text on Idi Amin and vetted it. Now I have Hitler’s story to tell, and Chapter Two will be ready to read over and finish in its first rough draft form.

Jim was happy to finish his chores in time to watch Michigan play Northwestern, winning handily. I hung out with him and read first in my romance novel and then in a book on diet which Papa sent me for my birthday. It explains the need to eat more for breakfast in a way I can understand, so I will attempt to change my dietary habits a bit, once I run out of the soft “Alouette” cheese which I so enjoy on nut thins, presently, for brekky. I’ll substitute oatmeal, as recommended – the book does not specify oatmeal but rather bulk and roughage. Oatmeal is about the easiest kind of bulk for my system to absorb.

We offered the Gaia Meditation along with Gary, who had put in a long day at the L/L Research Inbox, with me offering the ending prayer, and then Jim and I stayed up late, since it was clock-changing day. Jim changed all the smoke alarm batteries as well, to the kitties’ dismay as he tested them all and they squealed obligingly – the smoke detectors, not the cats! It was a lovely evening for us, and one that comes only once a year, when one gets that delicious extra hour – which one must oh, so grudgingly give back next April when daylight savings time kicks in.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

2006-10-27

The rain which had drizzled its way through all of yesterday continued all day today and Jim decided to finish his week’s work Saturday and use today for work around here, sharpening blades, doing weekly maintenance chores and working on acquiring groceries for next week’s cooking.

I awoke feeling quite poorly and decided I needed to take a day off. However I stayed in the office, reading about villains. I am looking for the best one, to round out my examples of a service-to-self polarity. I have written up Genghis Khan and will write up Hitler. Who shall I find to join their band? I thought of and discarded candidates, moving at a snail’s pace and often falling asleep, all day. I cannot tell, from the inside out, if it is a flu or just the effects of spending five hours sitting in the hospital being a patient patient. However, one way or another I was pretty close to useless today as far as working at anything.

I finished the day thinking, many Ivan the Terrible would be a good third villain. But still I am not totally satisfied. I shall read up on Idi Amin tomorrow.

One further note – when I spell-checked this entry, the spell-checker wanted to change Idi Amin to Ida Amen. What a difference a name makes! Ms Amen does not sound threatening at all!

2006-10-27

The rain which had drizzled its way through all of yesterday continued all day today and Jim decided to finish his week’s work Saturday and use today for work around here, sharpening blades, doing weekly maintenance chores and working on acquiring groceries for next week’s cooking.

I awoke feeling quite poorly and decided I needed to take a day off. However I stayed in the office, reading about villains. I am looking for the best one, to round out my examples of a service-to-self polarity. I have written up Genghis Khan and will write up Hitler. Who shall I find to join their band? I thought of and discarded candidates, moving at a snail’s pace and often falling asleep, all day. I cannot tell, from the inside out, if it is a flu or just the effects of spending five hours sitting in the hospital being a patient patient. However, one way or another I was pretty close to useless today as far as working at anything.

I finished the day thinking, many Ivan the Terrible would be a good third villain. But still I am not totally satisfied. I shall read up on Idi Amin tomorrow.

One further note – when I spell-checked this entry, the spell-checker wanted to change Idi Amin to Ida Amen. What a difference a name makes! Ms Amen does not sound threatening at all!

2006-10-27

The rain which had drizzled its way through all of yesterday continued all day today and Jim decided to finish his week’s work Saturday and use today for work around here, sharpening blades, doing weekly maintenance chores and working on acquiring groceries for next week’s cooking.

I awoke feeling quite poorly and decided I needed to take a day off. However I stayed in the office, reading about villains. I am looking for the best one, to round out my examples of a service-to-self polarity. I have written up Genghis Khan and will write up Hitler. Who shall I find to join their band? I thought of and discarded candidates, moving at a snail’s pace and often falling asleep, all day. I cannot tell, from the inside out, if it is a flu or just the effects of spending five hours sitting in the hospital being a patient patient. However, one way or another I was pretty close to useless today as far as working at anything.

I finished the day thinking, many Ivan the Terrible would be a good third villain. But still I am not totally satisfied. I shall read up on Idi Amin tomorrow.

One further note – when I spell-checked this entry, the spell-checker wanted to change Idi Amin to Ida Amen. What a difference a name makes! Ms Amen does not sound threatening at all!

2006-10-27

The rain which had drizzled its way through all of yesterday continued all day today and Jim decided to finish his week’s work Saturday and use today for work around here, sharpening blades, doing weekly maintenance chores and working on acquiring groceries for next week’s cooking.

I awoke feeling quite poorly and decided I needed to take a day off. However I stayed in the office, reading about villains. I am looking for the best one, to round out my examples of a service-to-self polarity. I have written up Genghis Khan and will write up Hitler. Who shall I find to join their band? I thought of and discarded candidates, moving at a snail’s pace and often falling asleep, all day. I cannot tell, from the inside out, if it is a flu or just the effects of spending five hours sitting in the hospital being a patient patient. However, one way or another I was pretty close to useless today as far as working at anything.

I finished the day thinking, many Ivan the Terrible would be a good third villain. But still I am not totally satisfied. I shall read up on Idi Amin tomorrow.

One further note – when I spell-checked this entry, the spell-checker wanted to change Idi Amin to Ida Amen. What a difference a name makes! Ms Amen does not sound threatening at all!

2006-10-27

The rain which had drizzled its way through all of yesterday continued all day today and Jim decided to finish his week’s work Saturday and use today for work around here, sharpening blades, doing weekly maintenance chores and working on acquiring groceries for next week’s cooking.

I awoke feeling quite poorly and decided I needed to take a day off. However I stayed in the office, reading about villains. I am looking for the best one, to round out my examples of a service-to-self polarity. I have written up Genghis Khan and will write up Hitler. Who shall I find to join their band? I thought of and discarded candidates, moving at a snail’s pace and often falling asleep, all day. I cannot tell, from the inside out, if it is a flu or just the effects of spending five hours sitting in the hospital being a patient patient. However, one way or another I was pretty close to useless today as far as working at anything.

I finished the day thinking, many Ivan the Terrible would be a good third villain. But still I am not totally satisfied. I shall read up on Idi Amin tomorrow.

One further note – when I spell-checked this entry, the spell-checker wanted to change Idi Amin to Ida Amen. What a difference a name makes! Ms Amen does not sound threatening at all!

2006-10-27

The rain which had drizzled its way through all of yesterday continued all day today and Jim decided to finish his week’s work Saturday and use today for work around here, sharpening blades, doing weekly maintenance chores and working on acquiring groceries for next week’s cooking.

I awoke feeling quite poorly and decided I needed to take a day off. However I stayed in the office, reading about villains. I am looking for the best one, to round out my examples of a service-to-self polarity. I have written up Genghis Khan and will write up Hitler. Who shall I find to join their band? I thought of and discarded candidates, moving at a snail’s pace and often falling asleep, all day. I cannot tell, from the inside out, if it is a flu or just the effects of spending five hours sitting in the hospital being a patient patient. However, one way or another I was pretty close to useless today as far as working at anything.

I finished the day thinking, many Ivan the Terrible would be a good third villain. But still I am not totally satisfied. I shall read up on Idi Amin tomorrow.

One further note – when I spell-checked this entry, the spell-checker wanted to change Idi Amin to Ida Amen. What a difference a name makes! Ms Amen does not sound threatening at all!

Friday, October 27, 2006

2006-10-26

Our world was raining all day today, just a drizzle for the most part but making the peak of colors a bit drab. Jim found a way to work amidst the raindrops after Morning Offering while I came up to work on the villainy section of Chapter Two.

I spent a very interesting morning looking for a better villain than Gregory Rasputin, whom I was intending to use as an example of service-to-self thinking and actions. Genghis Khan had done so well! But Rasputin was just a psychic, half mad healer with the native cunning to manipulate a good position. It wouldn’t fadge! So off I went, and eventually found better fodder for my mill in Pope Alexander VI, a Borgia family member. I look forward to telling his story tomorrow.

The entire afternoon was spent at the doctor’s office and then the hospital, getting pre-registered for the bladder distention test on November 2nd and getting no less than five vials of blood drawn for tests. I had an EKG and a chest X-ray as well. And two generations of nurses asking questions and jotting things down. It is an incredible amount of fuss for one little hospital test! No wonder our rates for insurance keep going up.

I finally walked out of the hospital at 6:30 PM! I had been going through the hoops for five hours all told. It was grand to get out of there! Everything was late, of course, because of my lateness, but Jim and I eventually got bathed, fed and offered the Gaia Meditation before bedtime.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

2006-10-25

A hard freeze greeted me this morning as I retrieved the paper. Actually, this weather is out of time for Kentucky. We should be in Indian Summer, and the freeze is due sometime in the middle of November. However here it is betimes! The only annuals in our yard this year, the impatiens in our two porch urns, turned up their leafy toes and said bye-bye for the winter.

Jim rolled out his leaf-chopping mower to cut, cut and cut some more as he works to get ahead of the incoming weather. Supposedly we will be rained out both tomorrow and Friday. Needless to say, Jim’s working hard today.

This was UPI column day, so I turned to a story I had read last week about Nobel Peace Prize winner Muhammad Yunus that really opened my heart. I did a bit of research to flesh the story out. I also Google-searched our site and found a good selection from a Confederation channeling to underline the spiritual point I was making. By lunchtime I had the column cobbled together and off to my editor, Larry.

I took the time to call Pam M and invite her to join our staff as bookkeeper. Jim and I still felt confident this morning that she was the right choice. She was delighted and we are as well. She agreed to start next Wednesday. She would have come over today or tomorrow, but I had done too good a job keeping things up! Other than a few stray charge card receipts, the books were up to date. I promised to stop doing book work immediately so that by next Wednesday we will have a goodly load of transactions to perform, and I can train her easily. In fact, as I told her, we will start off by running the monthly statements for Jim’s Lawn Service, as next Wednesday is November 1st

Whee!

After lunch I placed a relay call to Barbara Brodsky, my co-channel on the Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues and a deaf person. It was mostly a girlfriend call, lasting over two hours! Barbara was concerned about my health and I was concerned about hers – we are both in our sixties and enjoying the challenges of uncertain health this way and that – and we are very old and dear friends who are concerned, so of course we had to move through the updates, me on my tummy and bladder woes and she with her eyes and ears, legs and back troubles. We are both coping well, I think, and better than we were. Barbara will go again to South America to see John of God this winter. He is a psychic healer and she has been extremely impressed with his group’s work. She is writing about that, and reports being on her book at about the same point I am in mine – well into the first half, but a bit stymied currently doing other things. Both of us are aiming at steady work writing through the cold weather.

Then we took on the challenge of talking about our spiritual process. We are both dealing with the continuing challenge of staying real and not fake, fresh and not masked. When people tend to rely on you to be a spiritual mentor, of course it is a lovely opportunity to serve. The downside is that one can believe the flattery loving people offer and take other people’s good opinion too seriously. We have both pulled back here and there lately to get real with ourselves.

Oddly enough, both of us had thought to fast as a way of retreating from the world temporarily, and both concluded that we could not do so due to the medicine we are taking, which does not go well on an empty stomach. So we are working with the bareness of silence to rinse away the outward images of self and come to our hearts empty of pretense or concept of self.

There was not much time left for working when we hung up the telephone after a very good conversation, but it was wonderful to catch up with Barbara, who is one of the best people in this world, and a joy to know. We cannot do this very often, both because we’re busy and because of the relay set-up which she needs.

It is a nice service of the phone company. If you dial 711, you get a relay operator. You give him/her the number and s/he secures a line into Barbara’s computer. Whatever I say, s/he types and it shows up on her view screen. Then she talks normally into the telephone to talk to me, as I can hear. So I have to remember to speak really slowly as the operator is typing away at what I am saying. I never remember very long to talk slowly, and am constantly being brought up short by the poor operator, who has to get me to repeat and slow down. It is not the most fun in the world to talk this way! However it is the easiest way for Ba and I to talk. In person, someone has to sign for me, which is more awkward.

Tommy had written to ask me to secure the news about the Louisville Marathon from the sports section of the Sunday paper, as he wanted to see his time and so forth, but I am ashamed for my city! They did not cover the event. This is an old race, and one which qualifies people for running the Boston Marathon, so it is significant in the sports world. I went on line and found the records that did exist and forwarded them all to him.

Gary and I had conversed a couple of times about how much he had enjoyed the silence, meditating for considerable periods of time at the Omega Institute during his week-long study time there earlier this month. Barbara is a wonderful vipassana meditation teacher, and she and I had discussed which of her workshops I should recommend to Gary. We settled on just the one – a week with Barbara, Aaron, her channeling source, and John Orr, a grand teacher in his own right, and one who loves Ba so much that he makes the time to co-teach with her each year. They will teach together next June 22nd through 30th, in Ann Arbor, in an event put on by Barbara’s non-profit group, Deep Springs. I followed up after the telephone call by writing an e-mail to Gary passing on the suggestion and giving the details.

I looked through Steve M’s suggestions for The Choice’s Preface, accepted them all – Steve is sparing with his offerings, and when he has a point to make it generally is pretty obvious and good – and wrote to thank him for the work. I also put a bug in his ear – now that’s an odd idiom! – about something I have been thinking about for a while – creating a video game called The Game of Life, which uses the principles of the Confederation teachings. It would be fun to have a game to go along with The Choice book when that comes out.

Even though Tommy was here over the weekend to run the marathon, we had not discussed Christmas plans, leaving that to e-mail, and I answered his e-mail about that. It looks as though the clan will descend the day after Christmas and stay through the New Year. Fortune is smiling on the Rueckert-McCarty’s, however, for Tommy has decided to put his tribe of wife, Mary, and three kids, Rosie, E J and Ted, in a B and B or Microtel-type suite rather than gang up here.

His decision makes it possible to give all remaining relatives – my brother Jim and his wife, Kai and child and my cousin Carlos and his wife, Flora and child – their own rooms here at Camelot. The public spaces of kitchen, office and living room will be un-slept-in!

This will make things nicer for us all during our time together as a clan. We are a loving and happy clan with no feuds, thankfully. My brother Jim is somewhat deaf, so he will talk a lot, in order not to have to hear. The TV will be on, with games and crowd noise for background a lot, and music will be everywhere, as the whole family loves to sing and also to listen to music.

It is a time for the kids, mostly, and we will all enjoy seeing how they have come along. I have not seen Carlos’s daughter, Naira yet, and she is almost three! Carlos and his family live in California, not an easy commute. And I have not met Kai’s son, Fluke (pronounced Folk) as his bride of one year, Kai, and he just brought him over at last from Thailand, whence Kai hails. They had a dickens of a time with the immigration service but finally all was done for Fluke just recently.

My last correspondence for the day was with Judy R, my pre-editor on the Aaron/Q’uo material. I wanted to let her know that Ba and I had talked, and to pass on the news, as Judy adores Barbara and has been present at many of the co-channeling weekends whose sessions I am now editing. As it happened, Judy also had a request in for some clarification on a couple of editing choices, and I responded to those also.

Jim came in full of sparkly energy from his hard work, his good vibrations bouncing all over, as he was most pleased to have gotten a goodly amount done. He will still be challenged for the remainder of the week, but he is way ahead of his normal schedule.

We had a bath together and then I was off to choir practice. It was a long one, as the Bishop is coming to confirm new members next Sunday and we will sing more than usual, including a piece in which I inadvertently have picked up a very exposed solo. I do not like solos. However, I shall do my best! I even missed the Gaia Meditation, as I had to stay late and go over the solo portion of the piece with the solo ensemble. It is a very interesting version of Psalm 8, written by St. Luke’s choir member Brench Boden. It mixes lovely shimmering textures with jazzy chording for modern but pretty effects. The problem for me is all those blasted accidentals. I can’t read music well enough to grok them by eye, and so must plunk them out on the piano until they are in my ear.

Jim and I relaxed together over a late supper and had a sweet romantic tryst before saying good night around 11 PM.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

2006-10-24

After Morning Offering, Jim went leaf crunching while I spent the morning with Genghis Khan. Finally, I am back on schedule, writing on Chapter two of The Choice 101! The “housekeeping” days paid off! It was great to be back on track.

I was surprised to find out just how bloodthirsty Genghis Khan was. His Mongol forces killed 30 million people over the half-century of his campaigns, most of them northern Chinese. Now there is a good example of serious service-to-self polarity! Tomorrow I need to write the UPI article for the week, but Thursday I go back to the villains and work on telling Rasputin’s story.

After lunch I spent some time working with Gary on various e-mails he had received that he wanted my input in answering. He is always well organized and we moved through everything quickly. I came back upstairs and spent the afternoon editing our Sunday meditation from October first. I know Jean-Claude, Jamie, Ian B and Pupak will be glad to see the responses to their questions.

The hour arrived for me to put in my stint at the bookkeeping, so I took up the financial papers and entered data until Jim called bath time. He had had an excellent day despite the deep chill, thanks to some really good winter underwear made of silk and wool I found last year for him to work in when it is cold. After we dressed and got our drinks together we interviewed two more people for the bookkeeping position. I believe we have found our bookkeeper! Pam is a mother whose nest is emptying. She is looking for a few more hours of work in a life-style that is based on several part-time jobs. Her skills and expertise are excellent.

What was unusual about Pam was how present she was. When we asked her if channeling seemed an OK thing to her – remember, we are living in hard-shell Baptist country and some citizens in these parts would lynch me as a sinner and a Satanist – she said, “Well, sure, but you know, I have never known what channeling really is. It sounds interesting. What is channeling?” So we talked about that. Her interest was genuine and relaxed, as her whole demeanor was. And when she left, she said, “I know you have to pick from among many good candidates, so if I don’t get this job, I just want to wish you well with your work.”

The combination of her presence, her exquisite courtesy, her skills and her statement that if she got this job we’d have her forever won us both over. If Jim still feels the same tomorrow morning, we will call her and hire her! And we will at last be squared away in the downstairs office! Oh Heavenly Days! Of course I will need to take her through the books the first time, and for a while she will be hitting things for the first time and I’ll need to work with her on those items, but that’s small change compared to the hours I have spent at the financials desk recently, just keeping things together during this crisis.

The remainder of our evening was a pleasant haze of conversation with Gary, Carmen and Romi, who was visiting. Romi reported that he and Ian have done a lot of preparation for the upcoming broadcasting series. They are setting up so we can broadcast the remaining channeling sessions of this season, starting in December and running through May. Romi is sacrificing his time to run the board for this series, bless his great big service-to-others heart. We will pay for a private chat room in this series, and people will be able to sign up for the series, get their passwords, and have a good shot at having a good experience with the voice coming over the internet.

Romi offered the ending prayer at the Gaia Meditation and we enjoyed watching the St. Louis Cardinals take a World Series game in handy style. I saw my first fast ball clocked at over 100 miles an hour, thrown by Joel Zumaya. What an amazing talent that is! Nevertheless Scott Carpenter’s less showy style won the day for the Cards. I still think the Detroit Tigers have the best initial in the League! That is one fancy “D” on those caps!

Jim and I came upstairs for a bedtime snuggle and said good night at about 11 PM.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

2006-10-23

Monday is always a bit of a challenge for me, as I am conditioned by a lifetime of working weekdays to relishing the weekends and wishing they would not end! I slept deliciously late and barely got my Camelot Journal entry written before time to awaken Mick.

After our Morning Offering, Jim bundled up in the cold morning air and set off to mow. I made some telephone calls – accountant, lawyer, doctor and yet another doctor – and met Gary downstairs. It was my morning to get a new cel phone. I have had my old one so long that they are discontinuing not only the phone but the kind of net from which it works. I received a threatening letter from the Cingular people indicating that I MUST buy a new telephone. Am I to be esteemed for my thrift or regarded with pity for having one phone long enough for it to become obsolete?

The morning was spent on sifting through a welter of plans and telephone models and this's and that’s. When we had settled on a new phone, a new plan and the accessories of charger and ear piece, a whole new challenge awaited. Gary and I sat through an irritating, brash, in-your-face presentation that lasted so long my hair grew seven inches, on bundling. You can bundle your telephone, DSL and cel phone charges together. It sounds so cozy, but so useless!

It took perseverance to resist the salesman’s onslaught, but I kept saying that without seeing our billing details, we could not discuss changing BellSouth plans. Eventually, the representative yielded to Gary and me, and retrieved all our billing details from a computer terminal somewhere in the ethers. By lunchtime, we had managed to agree to a bundling plan that looked to be cheaper than our present, disconnected plans. We shall see, on that one!

As we left, the rep discovered that we had a satellite dish, and he wished to bundle that too! However he did not have access to the details of our dish billing, so we managed to walk out of the store, free at last! I never met a more aggressive salesman. This is not intended as a compliment!

I was just finished with lunch and I’d just said to Gary that I was finally going to get some work done upstairs when we got visitors – Jim’s old neighbor from his time in Marion County, KY, in the seventies, his mother and his daughter had come in for a rare trip to the big city. And Jim, of course, was off working, so I was the designated hostess. Work went begging while I practiced the homely art of hospitality.

They left for a Mexican feast just as I needed to leave for a trip to the Hubbard Clinic, where they are treating my tummy woes. I was again tested for nitrites and again found to have too many – whatever that is and whatever that means – and was given yet another prescription to take until Thursday, when I go back to the clinic for my pre-operative lab tests. I will have a hospital procedure on November 2nd to confirm the diagnosis of interstitial cystitis.

Gads! In between glomerulo-nephritis and interstitial cystitis, both of which conditions I have had in my time, I think there’s a song in it.

I got the multisyllabic blues,
Down to my shoes!
With the interstitial cystitis
And glomerulo-nephritis,
My tongue is tied in lots of knots,
My nouns are stuck in chimney pots
And as for my ills I choose
Them right now to lose!
Yeah, yeah!

Well, maybe not such a great song! But it has sole.

Wending my way through the sober autumn mist and chill, not to mention the rush hour traffic which makes driving such a joy, I got home in time to sit down with the books and enter a bit of data – which felt great as it was my only legitimate work of the day – and got L/L Research and Jim’s Lawn Service up to date before time to interview our first two bookkeeping candidates. We had two good ones.

The first, Marianne, was a crackerjack bookkeeper who did books for her and her husband’s small business and two other businesses as well. Her kids are in high school and college and she is looking for a few more weekly hours of work as the nest empties.

The second, Cheryl, was a grandmother who had been doing books since 1981 and QuickBooks since the early nineties. Her qualifications were the best. Her personality was delightful. However, her husband is minister of music at a Baptist church and Jim and I both felt that there may be a problem with our channeling. We are in the Bible belt here, and in some quarters what we do is considered “of the devil”. I imagine we will pass up Cheryl despite her stellar record. The subtler energies of judgment and fear are vibrations we would like to keep far from L/L Research!

With our working day over at last, we enjoyed supper, conversation, the kitties and the Gaia Meditation, with Jim offering the prayer at the ending. We greeted Carmen as she came in late from work and all of us sought an early bed.

Monday, October 23, 2006

2006-10-22

The Sabbath was briskly chilly, affording wonderful sleep, and I woke late, barely in time to awaken Tommy at 6:30 so he could go run his marathon. He did so, in 3 hours and 19 minutes, thereby qualifying for the Boston Marathon later this year.

Jim and I had a leisurely Sunday breakfast and then I departed for choir practice and church while Jim dug out the vacuum cleaner and wielded it until our little abode shone. After lunch, we enjoyed some sports on TV while I quietly went sound asleep in my chair, having to be awakened for bath and stretching just in time for the 4 PM meeting. It was silent meditation Sunday, and the two men who really love those silent meditations, Romi and Tom F, were both out of town, so we did not know if anyone would come, but happily, Carmen showed up and we had a particularly good silent meditation together.

The one project upon which I had made no progress during my housecleaning days last week was the wrapping of Christmas presents. Carmen offered to help with that, and we went to the basement and really got lots done! All the presents are now wrapped. Except for a present for our cats, a check for the garbage man and a check for the Episcopalian orphanage, Jim and I are finished with our Christmas shopping. Now that is a wonderful feeling, both in human terms of the job being done and in financial terms of the gifts being paid for! I look for sales all year, so I can afford the giving. I think it is so much fun to find things that are just right.

Gary arrived home from his day serving at Cracker Barrel and we all had a most pleasant supper and conversation. Gary offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation and then we went our separate ways, Gary to his reading, Carmen to her guest room – her apartment is not available until Wednesday and we are putting her up – and Jim and I to call his Mom, a Sunday night gig for us. She is starting to look forward to our trip to visit her the first week in December, and so are we!

The rest of the evening was a kitty snuggle, a romantic tryst and another kitty snuggle. We know how to party, eh? We’re having the best fun! I imagine it looks pretty tame from the outside in. We said good night around 11 PM.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

2006-10-21

Housekeeping Day Three found me working with Gary most of the brilliantly sunny, cool morning. We were working on the curriculum and the schedule for the Midwinter Gathering, where we will be discussing the archetypes. We worked through a lot of details and eventually got both pieces of text the way we wanted them. Gary typed all the changes into the initial text which he had written and shipped it up to me in the bower office. I got busy and edited that. Then I created a Gatherings Newsletter out of both pieces of work, plus some comments from me, and sent that back down to Gary. He will send out the newsletter. We found that we only have four slots left for the Gathering, as some people have already signed up, so we will let the newsletter subscribers have their chance at coming before we put the Gathering up on site for the general public.

After sending that off, I spent the rest of the morning working on the large goal of clearing the upstairs office of paper. I was awash up here. I got up here later than I intended because our guests, who had come in after I went to bed last night, had arisen – my brother, Tommy and a friend, Blair, had come to run in the Louisville Marathon - and while Jim cooked a carrot dish for our week’s food, Tommy made breakfast and we all enjoyed a great conversation, catching up on family news.

I had not gotten too far on things up here when Jim called lunch. He was early because there were two football games on, both starting at noon, and he wanted to be ready. In great happiness, he watched U of L win and Nebraska lose by one dropped ball. Louisville had a very bad first half and ended up triumphant, while Nebraska had their team beaten until the last moment, where they fumbled the win away. It truly isn’t over until it’s over.

I did not stay too long downstairs with football but came back up and hit the paperwork again. By bath time I had completed the job. What a great feeling! All the snail mail letters which I owed were answered; all the paperwork filled out and returned; all the doctor stuff dealt with; all the household needs ordered. My happiest job this afternoon was ordering bandanas for Mick. He uses them constantly in his work, as handkerchiefs and as neckerchiefs, and his previous supply had dwindled and the remaining pieces of faded cotton were starting to fall apart. And he needs the hankies. This time of year, keeping his neck warm is job one in the early morning. As the earth cools, here in Kentucky it stays humid, so it’s cold and damp, not just cold. Bandanas work well for outdoor workers. I found a web site that sold them by the piece and ordered many different colored paisleys for him.

Looking around the office now, writing this entry, I can see bare desk, bare table and yet again a bare table! All I have left is a stack of calls to make Monday to doctor, lawyer, lab and accountant and one item to purchase for Mick which he chose from a print-out I made for him from an on-line supplier of Smartwool socks, which he prefers for work. It is such a good feeling to be caught up!

I think that the worst of my feeling overwhelmed has been that I couldn’t get close enough to know the quantity of work was which was yet to do. Now I do know. The books are caught up as of Friday. The desk is clear but for two items. The e-mail has 49 letters waiting for me to come play. And I have yet to have a wrap session on my Christmas gift project. This is, for me psychologically, so much better than I was three days ago, where all I knew was that it was a lot. The chaos made my brain numb, or at least that is how it felt.

I have one more day to improve my lie before getting back to a normal schedule – perhaps I shall make a dent in the present-wrapping tomorrow and at least quantify that by counting how many gifts I still have to wrap! My mind does love those numbers.

Tommy was gone most of the day visiting people he loves, childhood friends he has kept ever since, coming home to us for a shared dinner and more football. Blair was gone also, to Indianapolis. We all converged in time for the Gaia Meditation. I sang “Shalom” for the ending prayer.

After Jim finished his kitchen-cleaning, we headed up for a late night snuggle. It felt so different not to have Sedgie! We miss our wee bairn. The other three kitties snuggled all around to help us feel better. It was a lovely end to a really good day – it feels so good to climb out from under this stack of paperwork. It’s like being buried in peanuts. None of it means much, but the weight is massive! Now for the moment, I am free!

Saturday, October 21, 2006

2006-10-20

“Housekeeping” Day Two began after Morning Offering and bidding farewell to Jim and Gary, who teamed up to mow everyone on the busiest mowing day of the week. My morning was spent working on e-mail. I
- Wrote to thank Jay B for kind words about my UPI writing and for offering to help me with QuickBooks.
- Wrote Gary to be sure he had worked out the glitch in UPI sends.
- Thanked Tiffani for her comments on the QuickBooks article. She loves QuickBooks. I hope to catch her enthusiasm!
- Wrote Linda P. about an article she is writing on divorce. I asked her for a re-send as her attachment did not come through.
- Wrote an old, old friend, Ruthie M, with whom I thought for sure I had lost contact. Our mutual friend, Lindy T, send Ruthie one of my articles and she wrote me after all these years – probably two decades or so. Ruthie is a psychic, a sweetie and such a blessing to be in contact with again.
- Wrote Gary concerning the curriculum at our Midwinter Gathering early next year.
- Worked through Steve M’s suggestions on Chapter One of The Choice 101 and sent the finished product back to him for a final read-through.
- Thanked Steve M for comments concerning the UPI article on sexual addiction. He thought I was a bit sexist. I agreed! I think we are all a bit sexist! We tend to make generalizations about both sexes that do not hold true every time.
- Responded to two more e-mails from Steve M on various topics.

That felt like enough e-mail and it was rising lunch time, so I took some straightening-around time and got the office and all the upstairs completely neatened for the first time since our trip to Massachusetts before descending to the first floor to have a sandwich.

After dining well, I went up to the village to deposit some cash – Jim had sold his clamshell leaf bagger – and to get some CoQ-10 and Vitamin C from the local health food store. I saw Jim en passant, dealing with more equipment problems – Gary had run up against a tree root and a blade caught and bent, so Jim took the poor mower back to the repair shop whence it had just emerged yesterday.

I settled into the bookkeeping for the afternoon’s work. I had finished Jim’s Lawn Service’s books yesterday except for recording Jim’s Daily Reports and making invoices, and I caught up with those before going on to L/L Research’s books and moving through those. There was a serious disconnect in reconciling a charge card – the previous month’s bill was nowhere to be found - and I probably spent a good half hour just bringing the software to the point where it would let me pay the bill.

With that done, I worked through the household accounts. By bath time, all the bills were paid, all the receipts were recorded and almost every envelope was empty – the envelopes which hold all bills and other paperwork for the financials desk. This left me feeling a formless sort of angst, odd to feel. It is a feeling of intense curiosity that will never be satisfied. My curiosity is this: I saw our previous bookkeeper working and working, hour upon hour. The result was this incredible mess which I am now straightening up. WHAT WAS SHE DOING? I shake my head in wonder. It just makes me appreciate Melissa all the more, and hope that our interviews next week net us another such gem of a bookkeeper. We need one! I am barely competent.

Jim called bath time a bit early and surprised me with a treat – he asked to take me out to Appleby’s. We decided to relax and watch Stargate before going, and we had Sedgie on my chest, so his head was just under my chin. He liked being so close. As we started to get up, after the episode aired, I looked under Sedgie’s little blanket and saw that he had stopped breathing. What a beautiful way to pass through the gates to larger life – lying heart to heart with your human companions.

Gary, Jim and I repaired to our pet cemetery, where we offered the Funeral Service from my Episcopal Prayer Book. I sang a sweet hymn, “Immortal, Invisible, God Only Wise” which has a lovely verse about passages, and Jim offered a eulogy for our beloved little companion. We placed roses from our garden on his coffin, a Schiffer book box which originally held Law of One books, and Jim covered the grave over with good loam and then with two large rocks. It was a beautiful service.

And then we ate good in the neighborhood! Ah, Fridays! On the way to the restaurant, Jim drove me to a shop where he needed to pick up trailer bolts and what a ride that was! The air was transparent and Indian summer reigned, balmy and beautiful. The trees are into their most intense color now, with glorious reds, scarlets, oranges and bright yellows everywhere. It is not quite the peak of autumn color yet, as many trees are still mostly green. However the sycamores are bare and the maples are dropping leaves like rain.

We got home in time to sit for the Gaia Meditation, with Gary offering the ending prayer. Then we came upstairs for a good night snuggle before seeking our beds around midnight. For the first time in several months, my bedroom door stayed open, as there was no Sedge to feed and keep separate from the other kitties. Sedge died a bit over five months after our vet had suggested we euthanize him, as he was surely going to die of cancer. I am glad we did not. Sedge never was in pain. When he had his strokes, he was unconscious, and at the end he was in a coma. In between, he was not in pain and he loved being with us. And we loved being with him, also. I think letting dear ones die very naturally is a good thing. There is something just “so” about a death which the Creator has orchestrated. There is a beauty there and dignity.

I pray my own ending may be so beautiful. Farewell, dear Sedge! We honor you.

Friday, October 20, 2006

2006-10-19

When I awoke, Sedge was again close to death. He remained so all day, and I kept him close in a kitty basket with a cover. It was not supposed to rain until the afternoon, but in fact Jim had to mow in the drizzle.

After Morning Offering, I settled in for a morning of e-mail work. I:
Jotted a note to MacDuffie alum, Brenda.
Wrote Barbara about our relay call next week.
Sent my UPI column on the reunion to my reuning sisters, Ann, Anne, Helen and Beth, with a note.
Talked with my UPI editor, Larry.
Wrote Fr. Joe about the choir doing work for the pictorial directory next month.
Decided how the Wooded Glen materials should be archived.
Worked with our web guy on the text for our Carla’s Niche page.
Worked on editing a recent channeling session with our web guy.

I had been working on material from our web guy for several days, and I finally managed to catch up with his questions and suggestions. I did a happy dance in my mind, as for a while there I wondered if I would ever do so! Now to focus on Steve M’s many excellent offerings! His e-mail is next on my priority list, as he has been reviewing the Choice text for me.

Jim landed, having finished his morning’s work and collected both mowers from the repair shop, and we had a good lunch and stretching routine together. He was rained out for the afternoon and so worked at home to sharpen all his blades. He also cleaned the garage and potting shed and rearranged his tools, having more room now that the clamshell bagger is gone to a new home.

I tackled the books, not to fix anything, just doing the routine entering of charges and paying of bills. I got finished with the Jim’s Lawn Service books and made a start on the L/L Research books. I shall continue with both the e-mail assault and the bookkeeping tomorrow.

I took some time to glean the summer clothes out of my closet in late afternoon, since Jim offered to do the carrying involved in switching winter clothes for summer. By bath time, I had a closet-full of warm duds. It is exactly the right day to switch clothes, as the whole day was chill, overcast and sober, with the fall leaves washing down all around.

I also finished unpacking, the final effort at that. The unpacking after our trips comes in stages, and the last stage, today, is putting away things which landed in Jim’s baggage on the trip home. As I tucked things away and cleaned out my travel organizers, I thought that it will not be long before we head out for Nebraska! The year is winding down quickly.

Jim called bath time, and I uttered a prayer for the morrow – Please, Lord, help me catch up! – and gave it up for the day. We enjoyed a fine evening of leisure and kitty-patting, wrapping several orders of books for mailing before offering the Gaia Meditation, with my closing prayer, supping and eventually saying good night around 11 PM/

Thursday, October 19, 2006

2006-10-18

This was the first of the housekeeping days I have given myself to get back in some kind of order – chaos threatens! I have promised myself that by next Monday, no matter what, I shall be back to writing on The Choice, and to a normal schedule of old editing as well. In the meantime, I am working on e-mail, bookkeeping and a myriad of miscellaneous chores.

This morning I wrote an article for UPI. I had been much moved by the experiences of my reunion at MacDuffie, and I attempted to capture those feelings on paper, although I am not sure that I succeeded very well. I think perhaps I was too close to the event to get the very best perspective. So much about the issue of violence in the schools is utterly tragic; so much of it is beyond my ken. In a way I am like the bystander who tries to explain why a hit and run driver just demolished my friend on the street. I have no idea.

In another way, as part of the tribe of humanity, I need to know what has gone awry and I need to alter that within myself.

Jim was somewhat late coming back from his mowing morning, so while awaiting him I worked again with our web guy’s requests. We are working together to regularize the look of the Carla Niche page, and to place brief but good explanations by each type of offering. Today we agreed on calling all the meetings we have “Gatherings”, whether they are Homecomings or not. We also worked with the text introducing my tape letters, bringing that into a first-person mode, as is the rest of the text on that page.

Jim and I had a good lunch and did our stretching exercises. Then he went to garden, a special project for a customer, and I sat down at the financials desk to work on the books. The one thing I had not done before leaving for MacDuffie last Thursday was to go through the QuickBooks and the paper ledger for L/L Research for September and October, checking the one against the other. I did that and found what I expected – a disaster. I pecked away at it from the end of lunch until 4 PM. I am not convinced I did anything positive, since we were further from a balance when I quit than when I began, but I put in my time! I thank the good Lord that I am not the one responsible for balancing that account.

In reading my column to Mick at lunch, I had found an error, so I wrote to Larry to fix it. Then it was back to the e-mail once again. I took some time just to read what I had; determining that no one with whom I was corresponding needed something from me right now. Then it was back to working on the Carla Niche. Our web guy is trying to organize everything, which is such a signal blessing. You have to realize how stymied I have been with this material and for how long.

Over a year ago now, we started a new generation of B4, the web site which was intended for spiritual activism and nest-building. I envisioned a kind of home on the net where people could roost to discuss or to share their passion. It was a very usual and average kind of vision. I would call it well-intentioned and modest.

What we had from the previous generation of this web site was a forum which was muddling along nicely, my Camelot Journal and the Avalon Journal. The Camelot Journal entries had never been regularized, as I had a series of web masters who felt that I simply did not know what was best for the site. It was an unreal feeling, expressing my wishes to these people, only to have it explained to me that what I wanted was not convenient, or was not the right way, or simply was not going to happen because it was too hard. It was good to remove that site, as it seemed impossible to do good work there or keep a loving and positive vibration going.

The Journals and other bits of information from B4 were saved to a CD which was sent to our web guy. He is now doing the slow, patient and picky work of taking all those bits and pieces which have never been well organized and bringing them into a consistent format which the reader will find easy to use. And so I pen a paean to him!

We praise our modest web guy
Whose horse is strong and true,
He rides it forth to battle
With bytes and bits and glue!
In love and light, in faith and hope,
He’ll solve the problem-He’s no dope!

The last conundrum I faced for the site had to do with the Wooded Glen Homecoming back in August of 2005. We never got a niche together for that, although I did attempt such a thing. The one thing remaining on the CD were notes taken by Jeremy W. They are in a somewhat unfinished state, being – literally – notes, in an outline form which is hard to read for sense, as it lacks sentences and also lacks a conventional, expanded, outline form.

I could read the outline code which Jeremy undoubtedly learned to use when pursuing his studies. So I took one speech’s notes and rendered them more readable, putting them in the classic outline form. I sent that off to see whether our web guy feels the notes are useful enough to our readers to “unencrypt” the other speech’s notes. I suggested that if we use those notes, we use them only for the speeches for which we have no transcripts yet.

As I closed down for the day, I sent Barbara B another note as we continue to close in on a relay phone date next week.

After a lovely bath, I was off to choir practice while Jim met a fellow who ended up buying Jim’s clamshell leaf-pick-up attachment. It does not pay Jim to use this attachment, although it works well, because only one of his customers cares to pick her leaves up, rather than demolish them and put them back into the soil as a dressing, which is what Jim’s Gator Blades and mulching plate do.

At choir practice, in addition to singing, I organized the choir to help with a church photo project next month and sold some more choir CDs.

I got home just in time for the Gaia Meditation, with Jim praying at the end. Then Gary, Jim and I conversed for a while about the QuickBooks interviews coming up. Gary has been working with those who have called in and we will do interviews next week.

We corralled the wandering Sedgie and came upstairs for a good night snuggle, turning the lights out at 11 PM.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

2006-10-17

After Morning Offering, Jim headed out in a chilly drizzle to mow his lawns. He had equipment problems as well. Meanwhile I tackled a housekeeping day, determined to get into the pile of e-mail. I cannot be creative when I am so far behind.

I took some time to delete spam and to see what had been sent since I last looked. There was an exultantly joyful note from Terry H, who had been greatly inspired – you know how that happens, just in a moment. All of a sudden, you have the realization that life is precious and good. I had to respond to that e-mail first and thank him for opening my heart!

There was a request from Father Joe at my parish church. He wants me to honcho the choir into volunteering for helping with a parish pictorial directory. I will volunteer myself as it is a job I can do seated! These days, that is the best kind for me.

Then I worked on the MacDuffie follow-up again. I had sent a letter to the whole database of my class, but I had also promised those at the reunion and sitting at our banquet table a letter in which I gave the ladies everyone else’s e-mail address. That took a bit of doing, as three of the ladies do not use computers, if you can imagine that, these days. I wrote the alumnae director and asked for those snail mail addresses, printed out the letters, wrote the addresses, found stamps and return address labels and thought how much less work it is to keep in touch with e-mail. All the outer form is gone and just the function of communication remains.

I have a few friends left, though, whose aesthetic temperament still moves them to purchase beautiful cards and stationery and to write me wonderful cards you can hold in your hand and appreciate. There is a richness to that more leisurely communication style. I am an avid collector of pretty and unusual cards myself and still enjoy putting a pen to paper. But there is a lot of fussing involved!

I received a resume from a QuickBooks candidate and had to turn her down, as she wished to do our books in her home 60 miles away. She envisioned weekly paper pick-ups by her husband. I could not see the receipts leaving the house. That seemed to me to be a recipe for disaster. By now we have about two dozen applicants, and I feel sure we can find a qualified person who will be glad to work at our office rather than theirs.

Melissa had asked me to write a recommendation for her for a job out west and I was delighted to do so. Melissa is a wonderful worker! It was a pleasure to do that. I sent a copy to her as well as to her boss, so she’d know what I said. Melissa mentioned that she was saving for a trip back here to visit, which tickles me. I look forward to that.

I wrote my two brothers, Jim and Tommy, and Cousin Carlos, all of whom plan on descending here just after Christmas Day for our Rueckert end-of-year reunion, letting them know that their dates for coming were OK with Mick and me, and sending Brother Jim links to a couple of good web sites for finding fun things to do around Louisville. Jim married a Thai woman two years ago and finally he has been able to import her and her son Fluke, pronounced Folk, to their Denver abode. He has been showing Kai around, out west, and wants to take her all around Louisville while they are here.

I also let Tommy know that he was welcome to roost here this coming weekend. He is running in the Louisville Marathon. As he rises 50, I am proud of his continued participation in such demanding physical exercise. Tommy’s been a runner since high school, and he keeps right at it to this day.

At some point in this e-mail riff, I stopped for lunch and surprise! I got some company! Jim had taken the second mower to be repaired and picked up a substitute to use for the day, and there was a natural break in his day, so we were able to stretch together.

My UPI editor, Larry, wrote to tell me that the new format was up on www.upi.com. It does seem handier. When you click on columnists and then on my name, the expanded biography comes up and the photo. I think the format is better for finding the older columns, as well, and they all seem to be in the archives, which is good. I wrote to congratulate him on that. It has been a project dear to him for some time now and it is good to see it finished.

I wrote a note to Barbara Brodsky, working on finding a time when we can talk by relay telephone. That’s an ingenious service where a relay operator types what I say so Barbara can talk over the phone, being deaf. She gets the text of what I say on her computer screen. And of course, I can hear her. Barbara is co-channeler with me in the Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues, a most magical piece of work. I imagine we will catch up on my editing efforts as well as sharing girlfriend time. Barbara has done amazing things with her teaching and has created one of the top five Buddhist ashrams in the USA., and all while dealing with not only deafness but other physical limitations including very bad eyesight. Her spirit remains buoyant and lighthearted.

The remainder of the day was spent working on text for Carla’s Niche. Our web guy has created a nice nest for all of those creative efforts which are not channeling but something else of mine, personally, like the speeches, the letter transcriptions from tape and the Camelot Journal archives. I wrote new text for the tape letters section, the counseling and channeling section, the Camelot Journal, the Avalon Journal and the UPI column section.

Surveying the day’s work I felt that somehow I had not done enough! So much e-mail remains yet to tackle. That is my catalyst for the day! I know whatever I get done is perfect. My little ego still looks for “enough”, that chimera, and never finds it. I need to work on being happy with whatever I do get done in a day.

Jim blew in, full of good energy, having somehow gotten his work done despite having both mowers go south on him. We enjoyed an evening with the kitties. Sedge had awakened me in the early morning with crying, and I found that he had lost the use of his legs. So I kept him with me, and during the day, he had twitched and spasmed in what I imagined were successive strokes. However in late afternoon he revived and was able again to walk a bit. Amazingly, he was just as chipper as ever, wandering around, snacking at the food bowl and sitting with us when he wished to do so. However, it seemed a really good idea to get the funeral service we use for our cats and other pets ready for Gary, Jim and I to use soon. I take the Episcopal funeral service and use all the prayers for children. It is a beautiful ritual and it helps us to process through the catalyst of losing the pet’s physical presence.

Gary spent the whole day at the L/L Inbox, working hard. He is keeping tabs of the QuickBooks calls for us, and reports that he has two favorites, both women, from the group so far. We will interview the likely prospects next week. We enjoyed a supper together and caught up, sharing about our day.

Romi came for a visit just before the Gaia Meditation, during which Gary offered the ending prayer. Then he updated the downstairs computers and did a back-up on mine up here in the bower office as well. We enjoyed a most pleasant conversation until about 10:30, while Jim had a late duty – one of his customers needed a ride to the airport. He got back just in time to say good night to Romi and Gary and come up to my room for a late-night snuggle before our lights-out at 11 PM.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

2006-10-16

Pickwick had welcomed me home immediately, frisking up and rubbing noses, when we arrived home from the airport Sunday. Sedgie had taken about ten minutes to express his reservations at our going away, but soon settled in to enjoying my lap, when we returned. Chloe held out for five hours before purring against my neck and kneading me in welcome around 9:30 PM. Dan D. Lion held out all day, all night and until this morning, finally coming to me with a purr and a rub at Morning Offering.

Ah! Now I know I am home!

Pat S. from our tax accountant’s office came over at 8 AM, as arranged last week, to work on our books. At that precise moment, our power went off. There is no way to do QuickBooks work with the power off, so Pat departed the fix outbound in the drizzle. Our power came on an hour later. There was no clear reason for the outage, no big storm or wind. However we live in a well groomed forest here in the village and mature trees slough off branches at will, so probably a branch came down across a wire.

We had our Morning Offering and then Jim went to mow despite the wet. I took the morning to compose a letter to all the MacDuffie alumnae who had given me their e-mail addresses. Then I started to enter the data from each of their notes to me. This took until lunchtime.

Jim was able to have lunch and a stretch with me, thanks to the rain’s getting more heavy. He was unable to cut further, but spent a profitable afternoon sharpening mower blades and preparing his leaf catcher for offering it for sale. It does not pay him to use that attachment, he has found, as it costs more to attach and unattach the accessory than the money he can make with it, since most of his customers like his mulching “gator blades” which demolish the leaves down to powder and drop them as a dressing back on to the soil, which is good for the earth’s fertility.

We had received over a dozen calls for the QuickBooks job and Gary tackled calling them all and asking them for resumes after lunch. He also showed me how to create a send group, something I had not previously known how to do. I created the MacDuffie group and sent them the letter.

I took in my e-mail and spent quite a while just becoming familiar with new messages and deleting spam. After that here was a good bit of unpacking and clearing away to do from the trip and I took until bath time to neaten the items we had taken with us and put them away.

We had an uneventful and most pleasant evening, during which I mostly snoozed, still exhausted from the trip. We patted kitties, conversed with Gary, enjoyed supper and the Gaia Meditation and said good night around 11 PM.

Monday, October 16, 2006

2006-10-15

This entry covers several days, as I departed from Camelot before the end of the day on Thursday, October 12th, returning on Sunday, October 15th. I had no way to make entries until my arrival back at Camelot.

Thursday morning, I arose in distress and consequently moved at a leisurely pace in getting myself packed for Jim’s and my trip to New England to attend my 45th high school reunion. The situation gradually cleared during the day, for which I was most thankful.

After I was packed for the trip, I opened the e-mail and did as much work there as I could. I responded to Barbara Brodsky’s request for a telephone relay conversation – Barbara is deaf. Barbara is the co-channel with me on the Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues and if I ever get caught up with other editing, I will press on with editing the third of nine A/Q weekends of channeling sessions.

I talked with Larry, my UPI editor, about fixing my latest article, on marriage. What I wished to do was center the wedding prayer itself, but their web site’s format does not include that move. Larry bolded the prayer text instead and it worked as well as far as informing the reader that there was a disconnect between prose and prayer, although it was not as aesthetically satisfying to my eye.

The rest of my afternoon was spent working on web issues with our web guy. He is working with the Camelot Journal and the Avalon Journal material from the old B4 site, forming a Carla Niche on the llresearch site for the archives of them. I sent several requests off to Admin Gary, working on his needs. For some reason there were whole months of entries missing from the Camelot Journal at the end of 2005 in the CD recovered as we closed the site. Those originals of the entries are on Maggie, which at that time was my computer and which was switched to Gary when he became the admin and I got my own office. The new office needed a new computer, naturally, since Gary needed Maggie to work on the L/L Research Inbox of e-mail. So I use my laptop, Traveller, up here.

Then there was a problem with the photos on the Avalon Journal. WG wanted fresh images so that he could reproduce them in a new format. There seems to be a problem with moving the images, as the photos’ borders have been worked on in a way which makes them hard to move.

WebGuy is also working on getting the Wooded Glen material together. We talked back and forth during this afternoon’s work and decided to make a niche for the Wooded Glen gathering, which was our 2005 Homecoming, including all the speeches we were able to get transcribed – both men involved as volunteers in this large project have been called away by life and their inner progression, as sometimes happens, so right now that project is in the half-finished doldrums, and I am sorry to say that none of the May video footage has been transcribed, either. After the first of the year, I will reconnect with these gentlemen and see what their situation has become. If they are unable to continue, I shall need to bend every effort to recovering the raw tapes, so that at some point they may be processed into digital information by other volunteers, and also just to have them for their archival value.

The niche will have, in addition to the speeches, a copy of our schedule for the gathering, all the photos we can find from it and Jeremy W’s notes, which he took during all the speeches. He was a hard working volunteer at that gathering, taking the video footage as well as keeping notes of what was said.

Time had at that point run out for useful work, and I shut down Traveller with thanksgiving and a sigh. I have gotten far behind the power curve on the work that does not involve the Choice writing and the UPI articles. It seems quite possible that I shall need to take “housekeeping days” this next week just in order to get the bookkeeping and clerical part of things back in good shape. Doing the books is what has put me behind on my e-mail, but the bookkeeping has to take priority. We got several calls back from our ads for a QuickBooks expert and we shall have interviews beginning next Friday. We shall try to hire just the perfect person this time, although it will be hard to top Melissa.

Jim and I had a lovely journey of it to Springfield, Massachusetts. Being in a wheelchair for the time in Louisville, Charlotte and Hartford Airports, my way was made easy by a courteous airline and the trip was made without any incident. We were lucky in that, going both ways, although we had been given seats apart, the attendants managed to reseat us so we could travel together.

We arrived in Hartford and rented a car after midnight, traveling to our hotel and finally hitting the lights for bed after 2:30. The room was motel-gorgioso, with heavy draperies and bed linens and a sweet down comforter that was especially nice. I have no idea why the decorator had chosen a very large portrait of the cat in the hat to decorate the room with, but there he was, grinning cheerfully over us for the weekend.

Jim slept throughout a lot of the weekend. I was off with my four buddies from high school. Now they have perfectly good names, as do I. However, back in boarding school days one had a nickname, not a name. So it was a time of revisiting being called Beebles, Party, Helena, Betherie and Carlotta. On Friday we spent the afternoon just talking and giggling, until time for Betherie’s presentation to the students. Beth had won the Distinguished Alumna Award this year at MacDuffie.

Betherie gave a very nice talk, with Helena and I introducing her. Beth had asked Helen and me to do this, and we were tickled to do so. However the thing backfired in a way, because what Beth had asked us to do was to tell the students what we did. Beth wanted to make the point that we were so close even going in such different career paths. Helena is a yoga teacher who has done social work – her degrees are in that. I of course am the maverick of the group, being a paranormal researcher and channel who uses her librarian’s degree only within L/L Research’s Special Library.

After the speech by Beth, she opened up to questions. All of the questions were for me. I enjoyed answering the students’ questions – I always love a crowd if they wish to know anything I can tell them – but I was embarrassed to my toes for taking the spotlight off my beloved Betherie. Not that she minded. She thought it was great. Betherie has no ego problems. She has excelled throughout her life and is serenely confident. Nevertheless I felt somehow I could have done better at securing the cynosure so that it shone on her.

By suppertime Beebles had joined us with her husband, Rafe. Rafe is in his eighties – Beebs chose him for his souls and spirit, not his age! He is twenty years her senior. He is a Spanish – not Italian as I remembered – poet and writer of short stories, with many dozens of books, in Spanish, published. His health is fragile but his accent is wonderful! We parted very reluctantly, and only because Beebles needed us to get up and get going early, as she needed to leave Springfield in mid-afternoon the next day.

Saturday dawned spectacularly, sunny and cool but most pleasant for being outside and enjoying the fall color as we toured MacDuffie. It was a dislocating thing to see the school. The very name has changed from The MacDuffie School for Girls to The MacDuffie School, now co-ed. The dormitory in which I slept, Downing Hall, is gone, not just sold but torn down. So are the dining house, Main House, and our classroom building, Howard Hall. That whole side of the street which the school used to straddle is no more. Not that this is a real loss, as those old mansions were too old to fix on a budget.

Now the school’s campus is 15 acres on the hilltop overlooking downtown Springfield, all on the other side of Central Avenue. It is a beautiful campus and the energy of the school is as I remember it, fresh, idealistic and focused. I loved my year there. And I enjoyed seeing what all had occurred. We toured around, at Beebs’ request. She did NOT wish to go by herself, as she does not want to get on any lists. Some folks who get sent to boarding schools do NOT like their parents’ choices and Beebles was one of them so we spirited her around in the middle of the group so she would not get noticed and asked to put her name on any lists.

Then we went to the cemetery which lies at the bottom of MacDuffie’s hill. Forty five years ago, Helena, Betherie and I spread our skirts out and sat under a tree on a sunny May afternoon, the sunshine dappling down through the young leaves like gold scattered about, and read a book I had just been given by my first love, Don M. He was an artist and I was deeply in love that spring with him. The book was The Prophet, by Kahlil Gibran. We read it aloud to each other that sweet afternoon in 1961.

I had brought copies of the book for everyone. Interestingly enough, Helena and I were totally on the same beam, as she had brought her own copy of it with the same suggestion in mind, of recapturing that afternoon once more. We found a delightful row of tombstones, flat on top except for the engravings. After asking permission, I sat on Helen, and probably had her name and life-dates emblazoned on my derriere after sitting there for over two hours and reading.

It was heaven to do this. Our voices, reading those beautiful words, wrapped me around in joy. There is something so precious about the spoken word heard in your beloved’s voice. And these were truly my beloved sisters who have loved and cherished me for so long, and whom I love and cherish right back. Who could ever properly value this experience? It was a sacred moment indeed.

We missed Jim when we went back to the hotel, as the reading had taken long and Jim figured we were out to lunch. While this may be true, we had not eaten. So we left Jim a note and headed to a restaurant only two blocks away – we thought. It was closed. I should have insisted that we go back to the hotel and get a wheel chair for me, or drive, but like a silly person, I did not, thinking that their next choice was only four blocks away. Unfortunately, Springfield’s blocks are not “city blocks” which are ten to a mile, and I walked far too much. On the way back, in my exhaustion, I missed a curb and fell flat on my face, scraping myself up and spraining a couple of fingers and my right knee.

However, Jim was a medical wonder, getting me an ice pack which he made with the ice bucket’s plastic bag and some ice from the machine. I lay down and actually got to sleep for a couple of hours with my hotpad on my back and the ice on my knee. I was so much better after that that I was fully able to enjoy the rest of the night, although I did need to abandon the thought of wearing hose with my pretty banquet dress. I will bet I was the only lady there in knee socks! Fortunately the dress was full length.

Beth received her award before dinner, with Helena and I offering our introductions as before, but this time we talked about reading The Prophet, in 1961 and today, and how the connections mean so much. Beth gave a lovely speech in acceptance of the award and we sat down to an excellent repast, home-cooked by the school cook for us.

Afterwards, we hugged and hugged again in the hotel lobby, as we were scattering to the winds from there. We went up to a room so well organized by St. James that I was deeply impressed. In addition to a festival of naps and football, Jim had repacked everything and we only had to clean ourselves up and seek our beds after a delightfully romantic interlude. For the third night in a row, we offered the Gaia Meditation at the wrong time! But we always remembered it, either early or late. Traveling is hard on doing anything to a schedule.

We rose early Sunday as we had a 10:15 flight and we had to get to Hartford, turn in our rental car, take the shuttle back to the airport and then check in through security. Although we overshot the airport by about 16 miles and needed to turn around and come back to the right turn, we stayed on schedule as Jim, in his wisdom, had built “uh-oh time” into our agenda. Again the trip was smooth, with perfectly beautiful weather, and we arrived home around 4:30.

I immediately sat down to receive cats, especially Sedgie, and spent the rest of the day with him on my lap. I left briefly to take a bath with Mick, and then we sat together for the evening. Sedge has developed a taste for fresh turkey. Gary discovered that, as he was taking care of Sedge and the other kitties while we were gone. We had asked him to go up to my room and spend maybe half an hour with Sedge twice a day, as it seems that he only eats when someone is with him. Gary took his supper sandwich up to spend the Sedgie-rime watching TV and Sedge begged for some of his turkey. When he was given it, he ate it all and asked for more. So now we are feeding him fresh turkey instead of the baby-food turkey.

It was good to see Sedgie and better to see him so happy. He was very playful, going after the plants, trying for the food on our trays and wandering around the downstairs before taking bites of the regular cat food in the kitchen bowls.

Jim offered the prayer at the Gaia Meditation, we had a late supper and a nice discussion with Gary, catching up, and we called Jim’s Mom before going upstairs for the night for a last snuggle before bedtime around 11 PM.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

2006-10-11

After Morning Offering Brave Childe Sebastian, er, Jim, rolled out determined to mow all today’s jobs plus a two and a half hour job scheduled for tomorrow, while I wrote the weekly UPI article. I decided to write an article on marriage, using the Wedding Prayer I had written for Robert recently.

Gary tells me he is having trouble sending out the columns to our list, because the format on the UPI site has changed. I shipped Gary’s e-note to my UPI editor and hopefully he will show Gary an alternate way to access the articles for a send. We have been getting a good rate of comments on the columns, which is helpful to me in evaluating how I am doing with writing clearly. I look at the columns as good practice for writing on the Choice books. They both target the national norm, which is a seventh-grade reading level and a high school education, more or less.

As the day cooled and clouded over, Jim came home for lunch to report that his day would be manageable after all, as grass was growing quite slowly, and two big lawns did not need his mower this week. We enjoyed our stretching routine for the first time in a while. Jim headed out to finish his mowing day while I squared off with the QuickBooks. Pat S is coming out on Monday from our tax accountant’s office to vet all three accounts. I have done all I can to two of the three accounts. One is “off” by $1.59; the other is “off” by about $500.00. Obviously, the latter is not acceptable. We need to figure out what our true balance is – and it is probably neither the QuickBooks amount nor the paper ledger amount.

Some receipts had accumulated since last I worked on QuickBooks, so I brought all the paperwork up to date, paying the bills and making the deposits. I reconciled the two charge card statements which had come in, and am now satisfied that the books are in as good a shape as I can get them for Pat.

Then I worked for the rest of the afternoon on the L/L Research bank account ledger. Our previous bookkeeper had left the minimum of information recorded in the paper ledger. By the time I needed to quit the desk, the paper ledger told a story again, with enough information to track the transactions. I regret that there was not enough time to go line by line to be sure the transactions were recorded in both QuickBooks and the paper ledger. Perhaps I can do that after I return from MacDuffie’s reunion on Monday.

I had an appointment to get my toenails and fingernails groomed, a luxury I greatly appreciate, as my fingers are weak and I can inflict damage on myself trying to trim my toenails! I have never been deft! What a treat to have all my rough nail edges made smooth by someone who really knows how to do it properly.

Jim and I had a late bath and relaxed with the kitties until the Gaia Meditation. Then Gary, Jim and I enjoyed a late supper and conversation until it was time for Jim’s and my last snuggle and good night around 11 PM.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

2006-10-10

The sun was sparkling and the breeze was cool as I bade Jim farewell for the mowing day after Morning Offering. I spent the morning working on Chapter Two, adding Martin Luther King to the roster of positively polarized people. We as humans are fortunate that so many examples pop up for us to use. There are so many wonderful people in this world! But in the end I chose Peace Pilgrim, Martin Luther King and Jesus.

After lunch I worked with Gary for a while, as he had a bunch of questions in answering the L/L Inbox mail. Terry H, who is translating TLOO into Chinese, had seven questions in Session 89 on interpretations of unfamiliar phrasing, which the Ra is good at producing! We worked through Terry’s questions and half a dozen other items, and then I came back upstairs to get Judy R’s questions caught up. Judy works so very diligently for L/L Research in getting these Aaron/Q’uo transcripts in good shape! Many thanks, dear sister!

As the afternoon waned I edited the September 17th Sunday session, which Gary had transcribed, and sent that off to our web guy to be put up on site. He does an excellent job of cleaning up anything I have missed and taking any names out of the transcript so as to preserve privacy when the transcripts go up on site.

I fell asleep as soon as Jim and I had bathed! Indeed, I dozed throughout the evening. Jim and I stayed downstairs so that Sedgie could sit with us in one place for the evening. He was on my lap all night, having a great time. Jim was bringing the indoor plants inside throughout the evening, grooming them one at a time before hanging them back up in the living room. Frost is threatened for later this week. Sedge got interested and jumped up to bite off a leaf or two for himself. It is great to see him enjoying himself and being frisky. He is very much in the gateway between physical existence and the other side, and he seems to be enjoying his twilight days thoroughly. However he is so very thin now that we suspect he will pass through that gateway soon. So we relish every minute we have with him.

We offered the Gaia Meditation, with Gary praying at the end, and we conversed and enjoyed some junk TV until we all got sleepy and Jim and I came upstairs around 10:30. We had a final kitty snuggle and said good night at 11 PM.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

2006-10-09

The weather stayed sweet and sparkling today and Jim rolled through a mountain of mowing after Morning Offering, determined to mow all his lawns before we leave for my high school reunion on Thursday. I am so looking forward to that occasion. It has been many years since I saw Beth and Ann P. Helen and Anne B are more frequent visitors, but still it has been five years or so since I saw them. It is so delicious to re-gather when shared history was all on the plus side! And these women have done such substantive things with themselves. I anticipate the meeting with much pleasure. But Jim does have to hustle to get five days of mowing done in four days! And the weather is not helping. Rain is being forecast for Wednesday and Thursday both.

I worked on Chapter Two in the morning, writing about Peace Pilgrim. She is my second example of service to others and the positive polarity. I love her story and I love her.

After lunch I worked on the books. My goal is to get them up to date and all accounts balanced. I discovered after working until 4 PM that I was not going to be able to balance the household books. I have the paper ledger balanced and have done all of the checking which has everything listed in QuickBooks in the paper records as well. However, when I try to reconcile the bank account, numbers pop up for the previous ending balance which match nothing whatsoever in the last two years of bank statements.

I called my tax accountant and told him of this situation and he will come out next Monday and check all three accounts. So by then, my goal is to have the L/L Research account in as solid a shape as the household account is. That is the one account I have not yet tackled. It is daunting, as our previous bookkeeper, Lynn, left so many check stubs unmarked and I shall need to be a detective, as I was for the other two accounts – house and Jim’s Lawn service – and figure out the paper trail from breadcrumbs and secret messages – at least that is what it feels like! This crisis makes me appreciate Melissa ever more. In her hands things went very smoothly indeed. The woman is a total gem.

What time was left in the work day was devoted to working with Judy R to firm up protocol on the Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues editing and to writing an article for the St. Luke’s Newsletter on these CDs I have been flogging for the choir. The sales have been slow and I thought if I explained why we needed new robes – the Washington Cathedral CDs being a fundraiser for new robes – perhaps people would be more generous. The CD is a very pretty mini-concert of about 25 minutes, Anglican-type church music. It’s a nice gift, a thoughtful one for St. Luke’s parishioners.

The story is cute, actually, so I’ll tell it here. It seems a lady fell in love with one of the British cathedrals and wanted St. Luke’s choir togged out in the same robes. So she donated them, a wonderfully generous gesture. She did not take into account the difference in climates between Britain and the American South! The robes are good English wool, and thoroughly lined. And we just swelter in them from April to October. Plus, there are not enough of them, as the parish is expanding fairly rapidly and so is the choir.

That work took me to bath time. Jim and I devoted a bit of time before relaxing to straightening out a freight snafu and then enjoyed Amy Goodman’s newscast and a CSI Miami episode before coming downstairs to have supper and offer the Gaia Meditation. I prayed at the end tonight. After a pleasant conversation with Gary, and Gary and my both reading for some time while Jim worked with laundry and other household chores, Jim and I said good night to Gary and went upstairs for our kitty-snuggle, saying farewell around 11 PM.

Monday, October 09, 2006

2006-10-08

I snoozed until almost 6 AM, a late start for me – I tend to awaken naturally around 5 or 5:30, and have all my life. I like that, because as a person I experience the most energy in the morning and then wind down through the day like a clock. I used the time to work in my room cleaning around, and then writing the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday and then descended to awaken St. James.

We had a lovely, leisurely breakfast and I got the pleasure of working the Sunday puzzles, a favorite thing of mine. Then Jim cleaned and I went to sing a service at St. Luke’s. I stayed late at church and sold some more CDs of our choir singing at the National Cathedral in May.

After lunch Mick and I stretched and bathed, then came up to spend some time with Sedgie. This ended up being a nap! Jim woke me in time for the Sunday Meeting. Carmen, Romi, Tom, Jim and I formed the circle of seeking. We used a question from Margaret P which she had sent in and also elements suggested by the sitting group. The question was about dealing with mood swings, feeling despair and feeling out of harmony with oneself. It will be interesting to read what they had to say. I particularly distinguished myself during this session by dropping below the level of conscious awareness. I am not sure whether I drowsed or whether I was going into trance. At any rate, I startled awake, still in contact with the Q’uo group. So the Q’uo asked for a repeat on the question and we finished the session without further incident. But that’s a first for me.

The group stayed, except for Tom, for a long conversation. Carmen worked for some time on typing my poetry in to the computer so I can eventually edit it and put it up on line. Not that it is deathless verse, but you never know what might help someone who is surfing around looking for leads, and my poetry is often metaphysical.

After the Gaia Meditation, with Romi offering the closing prayer, Jim and I said good night to Gary, Romi and Carmen and came upstairs for a snuggle with the kitties and then bed around 11 PM.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

2006-10-07

It was a glorious day, sunny and cool, with that crisp autumn feeling. After Morning Offering Jim roasted a turkey, finishing out the menu which Gary had already prepared the rest of. Then Jim took off for an errand run, coming home with our fast food lunch treat.

I spent the morning working on the books for Jim’s Lawn Service. As I worked, I found that our previous bookkeeper had omitted to write down on our paper ledger various expenses and deposits that had come in by electronic fund transfers. One by one, I tracked them down. I finally removed all the checkmarks from the last JLS statement from the bank and added in to QuickBooks several big numbers which were missing. When I re-reconciled the bank account, it worked out to the penny. That was a nice way to go to lunch!

Jim went out to work in the yard after lunch and I went back to QuickBooks. After I finished recording all the receipts and entered the bills for both the house account and for L/L Research, I went back to the house banking. The house ledger was in the same incomplete state as the JLS ledger had been. By bath time I had found all the vague references in the ledger, completed the ledger and gotten a solid total in the paper ledger. It lacks $700.00 and change of balancing with the QuickBooks ledger, but given the odd way things have and have NOT been recorded, I will expect to tackle that tomorrow or Monday and find the missing puzzle pieces.

From working as much as I did, I know that the L/L Research ledger is in the same incomplete shape. So now that I have all the bills paid and there are no emergencies to respond to, I can see if I can solve these last two mysteries. I stand amazed at the damage an overwhelmed bookkeeper can do to a set of perfectly sound books in only one month. I thanked Lynn for all her hard work and integrity at staying with the job when she really wanted to leave, once she got full time work. And I told her that I would call her if I needed her. I hope not to need her.

We have ads for a QuickBooks expert in two papers, and hopefully we shall soon find a good bookkeeper again. Meanwhile I have stepped up to the plate on this one, as Gary and Jim have zero competence in the QB software whereas I have a minimal ability to work the software – enough to run the JLS statements and do what we need to do. I am undoubtedly making errors in the work. However all that QB is for is tax accounting. If I just enter all the data, the expert at our tax accountant’s office can work it out at tax time. So I shall do my very best and hope not to upscrew things too badly.

It has been a good exercise in right livelihood for me. I have gotten good and spoiled up here in my bower office, working on creative projects. The second-floor location is symbolic, because I rise above the first-floor level of the administrative and financial work that undergirds my creative efforts. Even my view is different, as I can see sky and sunshine, whereas in the downstairs office, the front porch blocks direct sun and the room is less full of light than up here. So it is satisfying to pay my dues with doing the books. It is like Gandhi’s wife cleaning the bathroom. Do you know that story? She was high-born and never had done housework. However when Gandhi formed a community, everyone shared the chores alike.

She came to her husband and said, “You know I have never worked at cleaning bathrooms. Do you mean to suggest that I should do so now?”

Gandhi replied, “Of course, not, my beloved wife. I would never shame you. I will be glad to place you in a pleasant place where you will have servants. However, that place will not be here, with me.

Gandhi’s wife, from then on, cleaned the bathrooms when it was her turn.

So it is my turn on the old QuickBooks. I got a nice note from a guy who reads my UPI articles and he promised help if I get stuck! Isn’t that a heart-opener?

Jim watched the Texas-Oklahoma game in the afternoon between bouts of very effective yard work, clearing more branches, weeding and weed-eating all the walks and plantings. After our bath and an early supper, we settled down with the Nebraska game, which I did not actually watch – I was reading an old Nero Wolfe mystery novel, patting Sedgie and sharing the moment.

I used to try too hard to participate in sports watching, back in the ‘60s during my first, failed marriage. I took football on as though it were a course of study and I learned all I could. I was trying to “be a good wife”. Whatever my success at behaving well, my football watching made neither my then-husband or myself happy.

Forty years later I have found that being a good wife is being glad to see your husband happy watching football while you share the time with him and discreetly enjoy alternative entertainment. So I read and he watched until halftime, when we offered the Gaia Meditation, with Gary offering the prayer. Then Jim and I came upstairs, bringing Sedgie with us, as he is very shaky on his feet now, and snuggled with him and the other kitties until well after midnight, enjoying our leisure time. I will sleep under a blanket tonight for the first time since last March or so!